The Stars Align

Dedicated To The One I Love.

It's so cold and windy tonight
Typical to England, to be fair
The wind is whistling through the windows
I'm reading that romance novel
And I truly miss being with you.
We met when it was cold
But our souls were so warm
Because of one another.
I know it's not in my rights
To speak for you
But I know you felt it too.
I know you felt the warmth of my laughter
Just like i embraced yours
The sound of my love song.
I know you liked our car rides
Or the random stories I'd tell you
I know you liked the way I look at you.
Because damn it, my eyes were shining
Brighter than the sun
And my mouth was hurting from
How big my smile was.
What i didn't know
Was what you're gonna do to me.
I didn't know it back then
That you're gonna be my new insomniac,
In my thoughts , poems and songs
I was broken back then,
Not looking for another love
And another reason to use up my tears.
Because for a while, after we met
All my winter nights became summer days
And i was smiling. I was happy again.
I had you.
You who changed my life
Who put my heart back together
And seemed to be "the right one"
Little did i know, that
Leaving that puzzle whole and
Putting it in a frame
Wasn't in your intentions.
I am a child, I know
I am the most complicated person
You ever met.
And tonight, I felt that coldness again,
After a really long time of sunbathing.
I miss you, I do
More than i would admit I do
But I can't help it.
So what do i do now?
I'm so young and I've got a whole life
To get warm with new people.
Other people.
I don't know either to listen to my heart
Or my brain
Do i run back to where it's summer
Or I stay and bear another winter?
I know i won't get closure
But
It's true what they say
That young people fall in love
With the wrong people
Sometimes.