The Stars Align

I Don't Kiss 'goodbye'

I walked away and haven't said a thing
They told me it's for the best
To keep quiet.
I knew i wouldn't make myself happy
If I'd make you sad
Cause that was never my intention.
You should've seen me talk about you...
I glowed so bright
I could illuminate a whole boulevard
At night. If only you saw...
But this is not about it.
This is about what I can't say to your face.
It's been some time since we talked
my mornings start with
"fuck, another day" and coffee
And end with me in tears, so late at night.
I don't eat, i rarely talk
To be honest I'm pretty walking dead
Today i reached the point where i don't feel
Any pain
The tears roll on my cheeks on their own
Because it hurt so much,
It's impossible to hold it.
I stopped going out, started lacking sleep
There are nights where i don't get any
Just because i fear seeing you
In my dreams...
I miss your voice.
Only writing this made me cry...
I miss you so much my heart aches
But you... You don't miss me.
And that's a pill harder to swallow.
Acceptance...
Never been my friend.
I never left like this... No argument,
No closure, no kiss
No "why?"
We've got questions but not answers.
You haven't picked up your phone
Oh wait, i haven't called.
You haven't bothered either
So what do we do now?
I'm tired, my love.
I would've taken a bullet for you
But now, I don't even want that.
To be honest, i never believed its possible
To love someone too much...
Well maybe,
This was
Too much.

PC: Ecaterina Cleis