I'm dead without you (omegaverse)

Dinner time

Shiro spent every waking hour at Blue Haven Records. Sometimes he worked with Jaxx; other times, he was alone. His work with the album went smoothly, and for the first time in years, Shiro had fun.

But the thing that he looked forward to every day was when Dorian came to visit the studio. It was the same procedure every time. Dorian knocked on the door before he quietly walked in, and he waited by the entrance until Shiro was done with whatever he was doing. A soon as the black-haired man gave a sign that he was finished, the two men walked up to each other and joined in a tight embrace. They needed to be close. To feel one another.

After they bonded, Dorian couldn't stop thinking about Shiro. The omega entirely occupied his thoughts. Shiro was the same but managed to at least focus on work. Dorian didn't even recognize himself, and he felt confused because he had thought that if he bonded with Shiro, his life would return to normal.

Dorian, feeling quite desperate, had turned to Finian for consultation. It was awkward, but Dorian felt he had no one else to turn to. And Finian seemed only glad that Dorian thought he could ask him for advice. After listening to his husband describe this new feeling, Finian reassured his husband that it was completely normal. In a newly formed bond, the alpha would feel the urge to protect their partner all the time. That instinct usually became weakened after the couple's second heat together. But because Shiro and Dorian were a fated pair that spent most of their time apart and Dorian being a Prime-alpha and all, the couple seemed to feel that urge more than normal. Finian suggested that Dorian should spend some nights at Shiro's, but stubborn as he was, Dorian refused.

So when the newly formed couple finally managed to see each other, they had to touch one another. Dorian lifted Shiro up in his strong arms, and every time he went directly to the mark on Shiro's neck. Dorian kissed it gently before he bit again, making sure that his mark wouldn't fade, which it never would, but Dorian wanted to be sure.

Shiro shivered in delight every time he felt Dorian's teeth against his skin, and he could barely keep in a cry of pleasure.

"Kiss me," he begged, and Dorian always complied.

They kissed for a long time, but to Shiro's disappointment, that was all they ever did. They never went further even if he was sure that Dorian wanted to, just as much as he did. Shiro could feel Dorian's hard cock against him, he could see the burning desire in those beautiful blue eyes. But Dorian always stopped.

Shiro had never been so frustrated in his life. Sure, he knew why Dorian didn't take things further. It was only because Dorian probably thought he would betray Finian if he did more with Shiro, and one part of the omega understood that. But the other part, the one madly in love, wanted Dorian to lose control and to take him right there in that studio. Even though he wasn't in heat, Shiro's entire body ached after his alpha. And for the first time, Shiro longed after his pheromones. Because then Dorian wouldn't be able to reject him.

So every day, Dorian and Shiro embraced. Dorian would deepen the mark, they kissed, and then he left. Leaving Shiro in a hot mess. Shiro always ran to the restroom afterward, desperately taking care of it on his own, which was far from satisfying. But what Shiro didn't know was that Dorian did the same thing. He went to his private restroom and masturbated because Dorian was also frustrated. He had never felt anything like that before. The alpha wanted Shiro so bad it hurt, but he couldn't. Dorian simply couldn't make himself have sex with someone other than Finian. So Dorian also wanted Shiro's pheromones. Then he would have an excuse to lose control and to do those things he so desperately wanted.

Everyday Dorian got home after work and acted like it was all good. He only talked to Finian once about this new strange feelings, but after that, Dorian didn't mention it again. It still felt weird that Finian had suggested that he should spend some nights with Shiro as well. But Dorian had accepted that he would probably never fully understand Finian. But he still loved his husband more than words could ever explain either way.