XiaoZhan does not believe in love and relationships. One night he met WangYibo, a handsome singer at a bar. They were mutually attracted to each other and a passionate night ensued. However, XiaoZhan later found out that Wang Yibo was actually his s...
After endless hours of tossing and turning and crying, Zhan dragged his tired body into the shower and turned on the water while he sat on the floor. He sat there motionless as the hot water burned his skin.
He tore his clothes and let the water wash away his dirtied body. The one that had traces of him all over. He could still smell his cologne all over his body. His touch still lingers in every nook and corner of his precious body that no one had touched nor explored before X. '
After sitting there for an hour or more, he still could not get his body clean enough of X's scent. Xiaozhan began to panic. He got out of the shower and decide to leave his house, to go somewhere. Anywhere. Where he could forget.. and make it all go away.
"Ge, you're finally out? Come please eat something!!" Yanli was sitting at the sofa in the living room when Zhan walked down the stairs, a deathly glare plastered all over his face. He looked like a war casualty who just got out of the enemy's prison. Starved for days yet still had that defiant look ready to pounce and revenge the one who locked him up. Yanli, who had never seen her brother in that state was scared stiff.
"Ge please.. I cooked your favourite lotus soup.." She said hugging him.
He pushed her gently. "Yanli, ge have to go do something."
He went to Haoxuan, the guy who had been pestering him for a while.
"Zhan what a surprise?" he said. Zhan pushed him into his apartment.
"Have sex with me please..?"
"Huuh?? Did I hear you wrong?"
"You don't want to?" Zhan asked.
"I..of course I do.. are you sure? I don't want you to do anything you might regret."
Zhan took of his shirt and threw it to the floor, revealing his bare body and cream colored skin. The guy's jaw dropped. Zhan had been rejecting his advances for like a year. Now the object of his love turned up at his doorstep taking off his clothes and asking him to do him??? Haoxuan was shocked speechless. He was still trying to process what had happened when Zhan moved closer to him. He was about to back away when he felt warm in his lips. The beautiful student council president was kissing him.
Unable to restrain himself from what might be the only chance he got to realize his love, he took him to his room and they had sex.
"Do it harder!" He would demand.. "I need to wash his scent away from my body."
The pain and pleasure danced simultaneously like a serpents tongue that consumed his whole being.
After they came. Zhan would ask him to do it again..
"Do it rougher.. Break me.. please...." He would scream.
He was done with until he passed out. After that, he could not walk at all and had to stay in the guy's house. Haoxuan could not take it anymore and had to call Zhuocheng to come get Zhan.
When his best friend ZhuoCheng came, he was like a broken doll. He had no sign of life and was almost a zombie who was just living in a shell - completely devoid of life and the will to live.
After that, Zhuocheng took a few of their close friends and beat up the guy who made him this way.
He told Zhan: "We took care of him. So you can stop being this way, we are all worried about you. Exams are round the corner, it won't be fun if we don't compete for the best grades anymore."
Zhuocheng gave him a bottle of whiskey and said:"Here, finish this bottle to drown your sorrows after that come out of your hole and go back to being who you used to be."
After that, Zhuocheng left him with pictures of his ex lover battered and bruised.
Zhan would cry so hard he thought he would go blind.
He cried and cried some more until he could not cry anymore.
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Love came by like a storm
That wrecked the little boat on a stormy sea.
It came as quickly as it left
After he was done,
the little boat was not a little boat anymore.
It was shattered to pieces and only scraps of broken woods remain
only to be washed by the waves once more
till it descended
into nothingness.
Needless say he did not manage to keep up his streak of good grades. It was the first time in his life that Zhan, being a straight A student finally had a taste of failure. Zhan felt goosebumps recalling that particular episode of his youth. For the first time in his life, he actually flunked all of his tests.
Not forgetting the whole episode of his parents being summoned by the teachers, the dean and even the principal were present at the meeting. The endless scoldings continued as he got home. They even invited a counselor to their home to try to get him explaining why he would fail so badly so shockingly.
It went on until his sister Yanli managed to talk to their parents to put an end to the madness and so the family finally left him alone to recover from his emotional distress.
He could not go nor want to go to school anymore. His parents had to send him overseas to study in England before he could pick himself up and begin to live again.
As the saying went: The higher you fly, the harder you fall. This love that lifted him so high up in the horizon thinking those pair of hands would always wait to catch him down below were no longer there. Maybe they only existed as a careless projection of his childish imagination. As a result, when he truly fell, he fell hard. Gravity was that cruel entity pulling him so viciously down that terrible murky black hole of endless abyss. Forcing him to go through endless pain and hurt that penetrated deep into his core and changed him whole.
The experience had left him bitter and gave him an almost hostile view of love itself. Since then, he had flings every now and then but would not gave his heart away again. He would never let himself be so vulnerable that another could tear it to pieces again.
