Xiaozhan found himself pacing around his living room. Gosh he finally called Yibo and invited him over. Xiaozhan was still confused about his feelings for the boy. He contemplated whether to call him or head back to school himself to retrieve that document. He finally decided it too much trouble to go back himself.
He recalled back at school, He was venting his frustrations at Yibo's failing grade. Xiaozhan had always been quite meticulous about things. He did not like being disappointed and when he started on a task he had to do it well and be finished with an almost flawless result. When he was a student himself, the one thing he could not stand was a failing grade. He hated to feel responsible for ruining someone's chance of a better grade. It almost felt like him almost ruining the kid's future.
He recalled lecturing Yibo for having a slack attitude in his subject. Yibo's head was kept down, as if in mourning. He did not think that what he said was something awful enough to warrant that sort of reaction. He remembered the long eye lashes, white skin, rosy lips..
"For starters, look at me when I'm talking to you" Before he could stop himself, his hands were already touching Yibo's face. He looked up at those brown pupils and to his shock, Yibo's face blushed a shade of beet red. Xiaozhan's heart skipped a beat. It almost felt like deja-vu. That innocent eyes that seemed to see through him. He reminded him of himself many years ago.
*Flashback
Back then some 10 years ago at University High, Xiaozhan was the straight A student who wore thick glasses. X was the class delinquent. He spent his days either studying in the library or tutoring. One day, when Zhan was walking to the bus stop, X was playing football in the field when a ball went off course and hit Xiaozhan squarely on the face and knocked him unconscious. The tall and handsome X who was also the school idol carried the unconscious Zhan to the infirmary. He took care of Zhan and waited for him to regain consciousness.
Zhan woke up from the bed to find a sleeping X next to his bed. He had long eye lashes, almost like Yibo's. The rustling of the bed awakened him and when Zhan's eyes met his and that was that. His first experience of falling in love with some one.
The rest was history. Zhan's fuddy goody image was slowly casted. He took Zhan everywhere. Taught him to smoke, to come late to school and jump through the school gate to avoid being caught by the disciplinary teacher.
Their love was wild, passionate, pure, sweet and it was nothing like he ever imagined. He often wondered how he had wasted his high school years being behind his books all the way without ever experiencing or wanting to be in love. He never knew the joy of being in love and being loved back in return. For him, happiness was the almost perfect score in his test paper. The constant praise of his teachers, the hugs and validation from his parents telling him that he made them proud. Those were the things in his little world that created meaning for his existence.
X came into his life like a drop of ink in his perfect white paper, a drop of water in his desert, a single black taint in his pure white soul. He came and turned his life upside down. Introduced him to a world anew, one he has never seen or experienced before. He even thought the dirtied piece of paper had an appeal of its own.
They had their first kiss at the very roof of University High. The first time they had sex was at the students council office. Their love was something Zhan held precious in his heart.
To Zhan, he was his whole world, his everything and he could only see him and nothing else. Perhaps it was infatuation or true love or just something new that for the first time in his life, he had let himself loose. He let himself fall so deeply so freely without an ounce of fear. For those pair of hands that belonged to X was something that Zhan trusted wholly without any strain of doubt.
He was so caught up in that love's virginal appeal that when the rumors started he chose to turn a blind eye. He did not realize when it had started but lately, when they were together, he would spend a lot of time with his phone, ignoring Zhan on many occasions. Not to mention his friends started to suspect his infidelity and would constantly nag him about it.
The last straw came when he saw them at the student council office. He had given X a spare key to use the student council room freely. One afternoon, Zhan was there to retrieve something he had left behind. He was outside the student council office when he heard moaning sounds. Who dared to make out in the Student council office? He thought angrily and quickly fumbled around for his keys before unlocking the door thinking to reprimand the absurd couple.
Behind the door, the sight that greeted him left him in utter shock that rendered him motionless and out of words. As if his soul had left his body.
"Zhan? I thought you had class?" he said, breaking the silence. Zhan felt a hammer was lodged in his troat. He was at loss for words.
Zhan and him used to go there alot. It was their hangout and make out place. The whole place was full of precious memories of him and Zhan. Their afternoon make up sessions, the first time they had sex, their endless laughter and togetherness. The whole place reeks of their memories. To think that he would do such a thing on their sacred place...
"Tell me it isn't true and I'll believe you. Please... tell me it isn't true.." Zhan raised his voice.
His eyes blurred with tears as he looked at his, demanding for him to deny everything. His whole body shaking uncontrollably.
"Zhan, I'm sorry..." he replied.
Hearing his cold voice, Zhan's face grew pale. Zhan threw himself around his waist hugging him tight. "Please don't leave me.. I.. I love you... I can't live without you.."
"errr.. I'm gonna leave first kayes?" The girl fixed her messed up uniform and was about to leave when he grabbed her hand.
"Its okay baby. Just give me a few more minutes."
He turned back to Zhan who was still shaking uncontrollably.
"Zhan, I don't love you anymore.."
"Whaaa..? Whyy? tell me what I did wrong and I will change!!"
He sighed and looked away.
"Its not you. Its me alright. I fell in love with someone else."
"How could you?? When I gave you everything??"
"Zhan, you and I are very different. It got really boring after a while. Please don't make it hard for us. Let me go."
Zhan felt his eyes so blurry and there was so much internal screaming in his mind.
The next thing he knew he was running. He ran and ran until his legs could not run anymore. Then he cried and cried and emptied all the contents of his stomach.
He locked himself in his room for three days refusing to talk or see anyone. His parents were worried but could not do anything.
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University High (Yizhan Fanfiction)
FanfictionXiaoZhan does not believe in love and relationships. One night he met WangYibo, a handsome singer at a bar. They were mutually attracted to each other and a passionate night ensued. However, XiaoZhan later found out that Wang Yibo was actually his s...