Why Her? (SaiDa)

34 - I Am Afraid

Tzuyu POV

Momo, Sana, Mina and I are sitting on our usual table, eating our lunch. They keep asking me things and I try to answer them answers, but sometimes I get distracted by something. By the same thing as everyday.

After the conversation with Sana, I should have been more confident. I was, just not with Jihyo.

I came out to my parents. They didn't accept me as I expected.

Like the first time, they told me it was only a phase and that they didn't raise me for me to 'become' gay, bi or anything related to LGBTQ+.

I faced me. For the first time, I told them that it is just the way I am and that I'm never going to chance, so they had to accept.

In Hollywood, they would have finally accept me, but this is not Hollywood so they threw me out of the house telling me I was no longer their daughter.

I waited a few hours at the door, thinking they could change their minds, but they never did.

When it had been a few hours since I was threw out of the house, I started to think where I could go. I knew exactly where to go.

I found myself in front of Sana's house. I knocked on the door, hoping that she would open it and she did.

I didn't notice I was crying until she asked me why I was crying. I wiped my tears, but new tears came back replacing the old ones.

She didn't have to ask nothing more, because at that moment she knew what happened. She tried to comfort me telling me it would be alright and hugged me. She apologized for telling me to come out, because she didn't know it would turn out this way.

Although I was threw out from my house, I don't regret coming out for my parents.

It seems like Hollywood now, but Sana's parents wanted me to stay home so now I live with them.

At first it was hard for me to open up with them, but now it's easier and I really like them.

About Jihyo.. I never told her. I used it like an excuse, saying that I was already hurt and I didn't want to be more hurt. As time went by I just avoided doing it, because I am afraid.

And now I'm here looking at Jihyo and Daniel, that after almost nine months are still together.