Broken

Chapter 27:Don't leave me

I didn't know I could feel so numb on a beautiful day. Well sorta beautiful, it looks like it's going to rain-storm I meant. I've been crying for a straight two hours and I feel numb. That's all.

Numb.

I don't feel anything else. I built up all this sadness and all the tears over the years. I never really let it all out but now that I'm actually at her burial sight, it's hard not to let it all out. It just kind of happens. The flood gates open up after so long and I can't do anything to stop it until I can't anymore. It hurts but it's what let's me know that it's not a dream.

I wipe my eyes as it begins to pour down rain, really hard so I stand up before wiping my nose and eyes. I sigh before turning around and stopping when I see Yogi standing several feet away with sorrow in his eyes. I can't breathe. I can't help it. I burst into tears as I feel myself falling towards the ground in my knees, covering my faces as a big sob racked my body before I hit the ground. I feel Yogi's strong arms around me as he slides his arm under my legs and around my torso as he picked me up gently like a groom does on his wedding day to his bride.

~Brayden~

I watch as nugget walks out of her front door wearing a black dress and holding black roses, dampening her happy and bubbly attitude she always has. I watch her leave down the road as I followed behind her, not too close so she wouldn't know I was following her until she walked up to the cemetery gates and paused. I took in a breath as she sighed and pushed them open as they made a sound before she began walking again with her head down. She looks extremely sad. It's heartbreaking. I follow her until she stops at the river bank and stands under a weeping willow tree, standing in front of a tombstone. My heart broke right then and there when she fell to her knees as she leaned forward and sobbed like all the sadness in the world came crashing down on her.

I began to step forward as she dropped the roses but then she started to say something which made me stop. Her voice shook as she tried to catch her breath, the most heartbreaking words tumbled out of her mouth. I covered my mouth when she said 'mom'.

That's what she meant.

I watch as she continues to sob and sob, not stopping as she sniffles and kept sobbing. She covered her face as sobbed louder and louder until it was almost as if she were screaming her pain away. She cried for two hours straight until it seemed like she couldn't anymore. She wiped her eyes multiple times and her nose as it began to pour down rain before she stood up and turned around, stopping once her eyes landed on me. Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy, her skin is super pale and her cheeks are flushed making it look like she's sick. Her bottom lip quivered before she burst into tears again and fell to her knees again, my heart breaking even more. Not my nugget.

I rush over to her and pick her up bridal style before walking back to her house, the rain soaking us as I rushed into her house and rushing to the bathroom as I sat on the floor, leaning against the wall as I wrapped a fluffy, warm towel around her and rubbing her arms. Nugget sobs into my chest as she grips my shirt tight, her body shaking as she sobbed.

"Shh, it's okay nugget...I'm here now." I stroke her hair as she sobs harder and buries her head in the crook of my neck as I held her tighter. I held her in my arms for a really long time until she began to settle down a bit, "pumpkin, you're going to change into comfortable clothes and I'll be here if you want to talk. If not then I'll be here to hold you." I whisper as nugget nods and does a little hiccup before wiping her eyes and sitting up straight before standing up. I watched as she pulled out a towel and some clothes before handing them to me and retreating back to her room, closing and locking the door. I close the door before taking off my socks and shoes and stripping down to my underwear before putting on the t-shirt and gray sweatpants before drying my hair just as nugget opens her door, her skin really pale and her cheeks flushed. Her eyes were puffy and bloodshot and her cheeks were tear stained and the tip of her little nose was pink. This is heartbreaking.