a toxic relationship can be hard, having loads of friends ,having ppl watch your every
move thats tough .
so how do u get through it maybe you get back together who knows?
I woke up to the sound of my loud alarm clock i saw that it was 10 and i decided to have a shower and get dressed i wore this
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I didnt really know what i was gonna do today so i just scrolled through tiktok while i was eating breakfast i saw that the sway boys had posted so i thought why not go and see them and obviously josh, it had been a few days since we talked and we hadnt seen each other for like 2 weeks but i get it ,he has a lot of things to do and is busy now that he has joined the sway house. I grabbed my keys and said bye to my mom and dad as i walked out the house and entered my car.
When i got there i knocked a few times till anthony answered the door i said hello to him and gave him hug seeing as i havent seen any of them in a while we catched up on everything that was happening and i saw avani she is my bestfriend i ran to her and hugged her so tightly we were just rocking around . When we finally stopped we talked about tour and how excited we were and that her and anthony have made it official i was super happy for both of them but i just felt like a third wheel so i got up and went outside by the pool i saw josh and bryce with a bunch of girls i didnt think much of it but i was curious because he kept telling me he was really busy lately ... oh well i went up to him and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
M-hey bby J-oh hi what are you doing here M-i was bored and wanted to come see how you were At this point i was kind of annoyed because it looked like he didnt want me there and was ignoring me while talking to the other girls and i felt stupid so i just got up and told him i was going inside . M-uhm well ill be inside with ant and vani if u need me J-yhyh bye
I went inside and asked ant and avani if they felt like doing anything seeing as josh didnt want me around. Ant-y dont we watch a movie Avani-yess me nd mia will get the snacks we will be back Mia-yh lets go Ant-kk ill look for a movie to watch
Me nd avani got in the car and she put on music she was singing like her life depended on it but i think she caught on that there was something up with me , normally i would be singing just as loud as her. Avani stopped the music and looked at me .
A=avani M=mia (Thats just for this convo) A- whats wrong she said We pulled up into the driveway and i was about to get out the car but she grabbed my arm so we were facing each other. A- come on u can tell me im your bsf She said as she wiped away the tear on my face i didnt even know i had. I couldnt keep it in i knew it was stupid to get upset over such a little thing but i didnt want him to leave me so i ended up telling her everything and she said it would be okay .
A- it will be okay just be honest with him and he will be the same with you i know he loves you and you love him nothing or no one can change that .Now lets go get the snacks before anthony gets worried .
*skip car journey back*
We went back to the sway house and anthony wondered what took so long before i could say anything avani blurted out A-we didnt know what snacks you would have wanted and we didnt want to bother you so we just guessed
I just went along with it and we started watching the movie halfway through the boys came into the living room i didnt know where they went but i didnt really think it was that important , anyways they all came and watched the movie with us i wanted josh to sit next to me because i felt alone i had seen anthony and avani i just wanted my relationship with josh to be like that. Just when i thought he was gonna sit down next to me he went and sat next to one of the girls from the pool i was shocked that he didnt sit next to me his own girlfriend but i remembered what avani told me before i mean i was pretty sure he loved me oh well i carried on watching the movie and i reached out to get some snacks and i turned to see josh and the girl smiling amd flirting with each other while she layed her head on his lap and he stroked her hair . At this point i was on the verge of tears i think avani noticed because she came to over to me ,she put her hand on my knee and told me it was gonna be okay once again. Thats all i remember i must have fell asleep .
