social media life .

•part 8•

It had been a few day since that massive arguement i had with josh we havent talked or even looked at each other since. Daisy kept coming around as per usual and there was only like 2 days till tour i was excited i got to be with my bsfs and meet fans but that was it. When i heard josh and cynthia had to share a room i felt angry nd nervous but now i couldnt care less but the annoying thing is i still dont want josh to break it off which he still hasnt done yet weird ik when me and josh are on better terms or at least speaking to each other we are gonna start the plan we have kind of already started it because addison talks to josh more than she used to.

Joshs pov
It had been a few days since the arguement with mia , she is starting to get really annoying but i dont want to break it off with her i was so angry when she was flirting with samy and thats why i was being rude to her . I knew i would talk to other girls and occasionally flirt but i didnt care about her feelings . Lately addison has been talking to me more and i think i like her not likelike but as a friend we could definitely hang out more. Yes daisy and cynthia were hot but i still love mia why do you think i stayed with her and yes i did cheat on her with cynthia and im kind of happy i dont have to share a  room with her on tour and im with cynthia instead.

Mias pov
I know the plan is not ideal  but i just need addison to get close with him to see if i should stay with him or not.Addison told me it was going ok and he said to her that they should definintely hang out more.He has also stopped hanging out with daisy anymore which is good.

*skip to tour * we were all on the coach for tour i sat next to samy and josh sat next to cynthia 🙄 the plan was working and addison has been spending a lot of time with him now , me and josh still had not talked to each other but i feel like we will have to because our fans still dont know if we are together and tbh me 2 . Me and samy sat at the back of the coach and i filled him in on what was happening . I loved him so much .. well and avani they have always been there for me when i needed them and i tend to do the same.

We got off the coach and met up with our manager he told us where our rooms were me and samy were obviously excited cuz we are best friends so we were the first ones to go and check them out because we put our stuff away before everyone else we were just waiting for them in the lobby avani and anthony had come so had addison and bryce and some other influencers now we were just about to go when we remembered that josh and cynthia werent back yet . I told everyone we would wait for them for 5 minutes and if they still werent back they could find there way by themselves . We heard laughing and giggling coming from the stairs we presumed it was them when they came down they were holding hands and joshs hair was messy . I didnt say anything but just walked off with samy all i could think about was what they were doing and what this meant for our relationship . I mean he didnt tell me he wanted to breakup .. maybe he just decided it on his own . I think samy saw that i was tense so he put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him he didnt say anything but just knowing he was there for me made me feel a little bit more chilled .

I knew the only way i would know what they were doing in that room was by addison . So i told her and she agreed and she said she would do it tomorrow seeing as cynthia isnt letting go off him. When we got to the stage i realized it was a q/a , everyone had had their turn and it was know my turn the fans were really nice and kind until one of them asked why i wasnt sitting next to josh and why cynthia was holding hands with him.

I was quite for a few seconds thinking off what to say until josh said "jessa is no longer a thing" i sat there in shock but i went along with it and just said yh we arent together anymore i couldnt believe him did he just say that to cover up the fact that hes a cheater or that he really decided he didnt want to be together anymore without discussing it with me first. I looked at him in disbeleif i really wanted to tell the fans what he was really like and how toxic he was but social media always twists things and it always ends up being my fault for some reason . We finished the q/a and went back to our room . Samy just came out the shower but he caught on that i was upset and he changed into sweats . He came and sat next to me on the bed i didnt say anything i just laid my head on his chest and started crying while had his arms wrapped around me . All i could think about is why wasnt josh like this ? Why couldnt he be here with me? Were we really over? I spent the whole time worried until i woke up in samys arms i didnt get out of it because it felt right and special and  but i had to snap out of my thoughts and realised it was wrong i had a go at josh for cheating and i cant go and do the same thing . I had to talk to him about yesterday so i got out of his grip, samy had got out of bed after i had my shower i realised he was awake, i told him the bathroom was free now i did light makeup and changed into this