a toxic relationship can be hard, having loads of friends ,having ppl watch your every
move thats tough .
so how do u get through it maybe you get back together who knows?
I woke up and checked my phone to see the time it was 7 am which was quite early i realised i was still at the sway house i looked around and it turns out everyone from yesterday was still here aswell i saw that girl and josh i cant believe him both of their arms were wrapped around each others waist .All these emotions were running through my mind i was angry and upset and i couldnt forgive him but i knew i just had to talk to him i brushed it off and realised i have a few of my clothes in joshs room i went into his wardwrobe it was bombarded with his hoodies and the smell of his cologne i missed his smell i missed everything about him ughh i got some leggings and one of joshs hoodies . It wouldnt be weird right because he technically is still my boyfriend oh well. I went into his bathroom to have a shower when i finshed i got changed into my clothes it was now 9 am and i texted my bsf samy seeing as we havent talked in that long.
Samyy😊 M-heyy goodmorning
S -hey, morning how r u
M- im good im at the sway house rn
S- ooh did u stay with joooshh
M-ugh shut up tbh the opposite
S-tell me he didnt hurt u cuz im ready to throw some fists
M-can we ft ill tell u about it on there x
S-sure
We talked for a few hours it was longer than i had planned but him and avani are my best friends so it was expected 😂 it was now 11 and i was still in joshs room i was about to leave when someone came into the room it was josh , anyone but him i wasnt ready to talk to him after yesterday but i mean it is his room so he can come inside anytime he wants , he headed to the wardwrobe so he didnt see me
M-hi josh J- oh hey mia have u seen my hood- M- oh yh sry i thought i could borrow it because i dont have much clothes here J- well its just that cynthia wanted it M-cynthia?whos cynthia J-the girl that was here yesterday M-oh well why does she have to wear your hoodies i am your gf J-its just a hoodie calm down M-fine whatever J-ugh bye He said as he stormed out the room with another hoodie ,i dont know why he was so angry he hardly ever talks to me anymore . I sat on his bed because i wasnt ready to go downstairs yet i was just scrolling through insta when i saw a post bryce made from yesterday it was cynthia and josh asleep cuddling and the caption was this '❤❤' i know i had already seen it but looking at the comments all of them said 'shipp 'and 'meant to be' and stupid 'ship names '.
I walked downstairs and everyone was sat there talking i heard them say something about a pool day today i thought it was pretty cool and everyone agreed i went home to get a swimsuit i changed into shorts though this was my swimsuit
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I drove back to the sway house and went into joshs room to change when i put the swimsuit on i was about to get a hoodie when josh walked in and said J- change I didnt know what was wrong with him i get he was being over protective but normally he would let me wear what i wanted M-no i like this J-i said change now . As he raised his voice a little and threw me a hoodie I was starting to get really annoyed he wouldnt let me have fun but he could cuddle and flirt with other girls . I sighed and put the hoodie on and walked out the room while rolling my eyes . I didnt get why he was being so protective over me maybe he was jealous whatever right now i just wanted to have fun and i didnt care what anyone else thought i took of the hoodie and sat at the edge of the pool with the girls (avani and addison)
Avani- girll you look soo good Addison -yess slayy Mia-awh thanks you guys look so hot We sat on the sun beds when josh and cynthia came out i dont know why she kept on coming here she doesnt even live here and i knew that none of the girls liked her because i told them about her and josh . While we layed there tanning josh came up to me and grabbed my arm and took me inside J- i told u to wear the hoodie M- why would you even care over the past few days youve just been talking to cynthia and havent even realised im here now leave me alone im going to have fun I knew he got angry because his grip on my arm got tighter J-dont talk to me like that cynthia is just a close friend now change M-No NOW GET OFF OF ME At this point is shouted and everyone ran inside J- i am your bf so listen to me M-you didnt talk to me yesterday because you were too busy cuddling and flirting with cynthia ! I looked up to see the rage in his eyes M-i winced in pain because of how hard my arm was being squeezed Without saying anything he slapped me and walked off as he was about to go in his room he said J-if anyone was cheating it would probaly be you , look at how much you talk to samy. I didnt pay attention to what he said i just looked down at my arm to see his hand print on it and broke down into tears at this point avani came in and started shouting at josh everyone else was helping me they gave me ice to put on my face and arm ,i couldnt help but notice cynthia run upstairs into joshs room i didnt care right now because josh is toxic but a part of me is saying that it was my fault and if i had just listened to him none of this would have happened.
It had been a few hours and they told me to stay there because avani and addison were aswell i called my parents to let them know i was staying i didnt tell them about everything that happened with josh because i wasnt ready they said it was fine and i could stay as long as i wanted . Everyone was sat in the living room on the couches they told me i should talk to josh which i didnt want to do but i knew they were right i was going up the stairs nd i didnt knock because there wasnt any point i knew he was in there as i walked in i said M- josh im sory for before i think we need- As i turned around i saw josh and cynthia making out 😱my heart shattered into a million pieces i ran out the room and downstairs i started to cry my eyes out everyone gathered around me and asked what was wrong M-h- he is cheating on me w-with cyynthia Everyone -dont stress r u sure it wasnt just a peck it couldnt have been a mistake M- it was like they were eating each others faces! Everyone i- im soo sorry idk whats wrong with him The boys:that b***** im gonna kill him M-no just leave it hes made up his mind he clearly doesnt care about our relationship enough. He would rather be with cynthia and i cant force him to love me.
Everyone did there own thing after that and they didnt bother me i just went upstairs into the guest bedroom because there was no way i was gonna stay with josh after what he did . I tried not to think about it so i just put on my playlist and slowly drifted of to sleep.
