The Beginning

Chapter 53. Scars

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Niall
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i stare at my phone trying to ignore the tv and the multiple notifications coming up all based on Jade and what's apparently happened, i can't help but click onto twitter seeing a tweet from a fan

@/niallsbae (i dunno) can't believe after everything Nialls done for Jade, how they have a baby and she still goes and cheats with her ex she must be crazy

i click on the image below it Jade snuggled up to what really looks like Jed anger building up inside me. surely not surely she wouldn't do that, even if she was insanely drunk surely she would know who he was, surely she wouldn't cheat on me "Niall" i hear Perrie shout as the front door slams shut i fall back onto the bed pulling the covers over my face as the bedroom door opens "Perrie please say it's not true" i slightly groan holding back the tears that are trying to form in my eyes she just sighs sitting on the end of the bed i take the covers off my face and i can tell she feels guilty "we lost her, honestly i don't think anything extreme happened but we don't know where she is either" she mutters not looking at me and concentrating on her hands playing with each other i chew my lip putting my hand through my hair. she loves me though, we have Aria why would she even think about going near him, being drunk is not really an excuse either because let's be honest we still know right and wrong whether we're extremely drunk or just a little tipsy "i'm so sorry" Perrie mumbles wiping her eyes as she does so "don't you cry because it's not your fault if she has" i tell her coming and sitting next to her and being thankful with myself that i threw joggers on last night she shakes her head laughing a little to herself "i just feel guilty because i told you i'd look after her, and after everything you've been through this is the last thing you deserve" she sighs trying her best not to cry i just shake my head wiping my own tears, Perrie has a point but if the damage is done there's nothing we can do and i'm just gonna have to get through it and what's been done before can be done again after all. i hope Jade doesn't leave me though i hope it's not a repeat of history because i know this time it would be ten times worse seeing as Aria would be involved. but then maybe it is me, maybe i'm just not good enough for anyone and i'm meant to be alone because no matter how much i show my love to someone it somehow ends up bad for me and if Jade gives up on me then i think that's my sign to give up on love forever. "i promise you though Niall, no matter what we'll make sure you don't go back to that place, i promise you'll be okay and every single one of us will get you through whatever this is" Perrie mutters i can't help but uncontrollably sob i put my hands in my head Perrie wraps her arms around me resting her chin against my head rubbing my back. my heart feels as if it's been split in two and i don't even know if this is even true for all we know this is just a huge editing scam that reporters have jumped on instantly for 'gossip', it could be an old picture that no ones ever even seen before but it still kills me seeing her with someone who treated her the way he did it builds so much anger up inside of me, whatever happens whether this makes or breaks us, if this was just a quick conversation or something more, this is gonna take me a very long time to get over. "come on" Perrie says jumping up and going into my wardrobe "what?" i exclaim she comes back in throwing a top at me "let's go get your baby girl and then we'll go to Alex have some breakfast and have a day out" she smiles kicking shoes at me
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"these scars, no longer i hide"