The Horrors of 8th Grade

12/10

I haven't cried since November 21st, 2014
But today during lunch one tear fell from my cheek. why?
Because when I sat down for lunch with my food warmed up and my cream soda. gabby and Lizzie were talking about gabbys animation.
"So we have Mia and we all dance but who should be our next guest"
"Hmmmm"
They looked right at me
"MRS. GUNCU"

Idk why but then all my moments flashed in my head of crying the nights before because of gabby. and the tears of sadness because of her. so I closed my container, grabbed my cucumbers and soda and walked over and sat with Andrea maddi and Nicole. I thought I was good then maddi asked if I was okay. I broke down and told her I feel like gabby is two facing me and like acting like a BFF then the next my worst enemy.
I stopped but I wanted to cry so bad.
In science I got up and went to cry and a girl walked in and was like are you okay and I said I'm fine it's just middle school.
Then in recess me and maddi were talking and she told me stuff and I told her stuff and we really connected and I told her thank you for opening up to me because it meant a lot.
The rest of the day was finals
Erg
So when I got home I just hung out and read gabbys wattpad and she said
"And kaija"
And it reminded me of our sleepover when I was almost dead and I was sleep talking and I said and Kyle
So that made me laugh.
But gabby has been telling Lizzie things that are untrue that I said.
So idek rn I want to be gabbys friend but I don't
So I unadded her wattpad in my library.
I can't read things that make me feel bad about my self

So I cried a but while writing this but in fine
So bye
Try to stay happy although I can't
✌️

~Kaija Payge