The Horrors of 8th Grade

10/28

NO ONE WILL TELL ME WHO CORBIN LIKES!!!!!!!!!
It really pisses me off. I want to know and no one tells me like wtf. today I was talking I Andrea and she opened my eyes.
Gabby told me that I I dated Corbin it would be a "bitch move". Andrea responded with great reasoning. She said, and I quote, "why would that be bitchy, you have been dreaming of dating this guy since seventh grade, it would be bitchy for them to keep him from you. I don't like him kaija but you do, and you should be able to date whoever you want. that would not be bitchy."
THANK YOU ANDREA.
How would it be bitchy for me to have my wish come true? she almost made me cry. I have her a hug, one of the biggest hugs ever. I had her blessing and that made me so happy. but I just need gabbys and Elizabeth's blessing but Andrea is important and I care about what she thinks.
On the other hand Ethan was a one day thing (I think) I just don't think that will last long (I think). but Corbin is getting morer and morer attractive so I'm just going to try to finish my bucket list and I'm going for it.
I was good today an then I started remembering about gabby killing herself an I started crying. I started to drift off when I got home an I slept for about thirty minutes. I had the same dream. gabby and I walking to the store an she started talking really dark. and she just jumps in front of a car. I had to sit in the street holding her and call 911 and I was jut crying and when the ambulance comes I wake up. I've had this dream 3 times now. it freaks me out. but all beside that I'm good and getting better (I think).
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~Kaija Payge (8:06 p.m.)