Loves Deception

Chapter 29

Over the next week and a half Layla and Xavier mated like rabbits. She had packed her bags and ended up at his place where they had been held up ever since. It was a given that she would be spending Christmas with him. He had nibbled on her ear as she spoke to the representative and canceled her trip and then they spent the day unwrapping each other. He had wanted to take her to his parent’s home for Christmas dinner but they decided to keep their relationship between them, for now. They stayed in the entire time watching movies, ordering out, and christening his house. No place was safe. When he came back from getting groceries she had met him at the door and proceeded to give him one hell of a blow job. He spilled in her mouth and she caught every last drop.

After a round of love making on the couch she left him asleep and went to soak in the tub. As she bent over to turn on the water he slipped into her from behind. They ended up on the counter, and floor. Each attempt to cook together ended up with them feasting on each other. She was lucky she wouldn’t be here when he had company. Just thinking of the things they did in the kitchen left her blushing. This morning they never even made it out of bed. After round two Layla had drifted off to sleep while Xavier played with her nipples. He left to run errands and when he arrived back she was still asleep.

He sat on the edge of the bed watching her. She was so beautiful, and looked so peaceful. She fit in his home, in his life so perfectly like she hadn’t been gone at all. She belonged here. He’d readily give her whatever she asked, do whatever she wanted. He knew now wasn’t the time to talk about permanent living arrangements. Hell they still hadn’t opened up to him yet. But he would take things slow and not pressure her. He knew he couldn’t ask her to give up the life she had built without him, but he wasn’t going to let her leave without a commitment. He sighed. He hoped everything went well today. He had made reservations for them at a nearby restaurant but he’d much rather they spent the day in bed. He knew they needed to get out and he wanted their time together to be special.

Xavier reached out to caress her face and she stirred awake. She opened her eyes slowly and stared up at him. He tweaked her nose. “Hey sleeping beauty” he joked trying to gauge her mood. She smiled. “Hey” she said softly. “How you feeling?” He reached out and stroked her hip. She yawned and stretched. “I’m good. A little sore, but it’s a good feeling.” she flirted, reaching up and palming his cheek. “How are you feeling today?” She asked. He kissed her hand. “I feel wonderful. Happy that you’re here with me.” he said honestly. She nodded and stared back at him lovingly. She finally spoke. “I’m ready to talk about it.” she murmured. He eyed her cautiously. “You sure?” she nodded. He smiled, climbed into bed and pulled her against his chest. They lay quietly holding each other for awhile.

She listened to his strong heartbeat as it calmed her. She sighed. “Normally when that day comes around I get depressed.” She said quietly. He squeezed her tighter. “Then I’d receive your roses and I’d smile. But then I’d think of you... Wonder how you were doing, if you were happy…or sad like me. I wanted to call you so many times. Just to hear your voice, and say hi but I always chickened out. I admit when I first started receiving your flowers I got so angry. I felt like you were torturing me with a constant reminder of what we lost. But over time I realized that those flowers were my…our link to one another. To always remembering our precious gift. You were letting me know that you were still there for me... Waiting.” She sniffed and Xavier wiped at her tears. She cleared her throat. “I want you to know that you did nothing wrong. I was just lost… Broken. I had to find myself. Find my own way. I thought that if I stayed I’d grow to resent you and our already fragile relationship would be ruined completely. I didn’t want to lose you but I didn’t know how to be there for you and look into your face every day thinking... Would our son of had your eyes… your smile.” Her body shook as she cried silently. Xavier just held her tighter and rocked her. They had learned the sex of the baby when she delivered, and the knowledge of their son had made it even more unbearable. She felt his tears soaking her hair. “I’m sorry that I couldn’t be there for you when you needed me most.” She sobbed as he rubbed her back. “Walking away from you was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.” She winced recalling that day, that moment she said goodbye. “It took me three long years to finally let go of all that anger. For the pain to ease. I had finally accepted what happened and learned forgiveness through talking and praying. I jsut needed that time... After I realized what I’d done to you. How I just walked out on you like that. I knew that you’d probably never forgive me. I knew I couldn’t just walk back in your life after so many years. It seemed like you were happy and had moved on but I wanted it to be me who you were moving on with. That's why I called you that night... But after you said what you said, I accepted that we would never be again and I silently prayed that you’d find love again... And every year after, I've waited for your roses. It felt like I still had a small piece of you.”