All For You

Complicated, right?

Napapaisip ako minsan sa tuwing naaalala ko yung sarili ko falling in love with somebody. Yung tipong natatakot na ako sa sarili ko kasi parang never akong natuto after my past relationships.

Never ko namang pinili who to fall in love with. It just happens, may magagawa ba ako? Bigla na lang. Hindi ako nakaiwas. Wala akong mala Matrix na moves, ayun nasapul ni Kupido.

Eh papaano mo ba kasi mapipigilan kung late mo na narealize na mahal mo na pala siya? Kung kailan hulog na hulog ka na, na parang sa wrestling, tap out na lang ang kulang.

Hindi mo naman mapaplano kung kanino mahuhulog yung loob mo diba? Hindi naman pwedeng ay si ganito na lang kasi crush ako nyan or si ganito na lang kasi matagal na akong gusto niya. Parang mali ata yun?

Sabi nila, we can always choose who to love but we can't choose who to fall in love with. Because if you do, maybe it's not true love. Maybe, it's just an infatuation, a crush or the likes. Or simply you are just choosing what's convenient. 

Tsaka diba, when you say you like someone it doesn't always mean na mahal mo na siya. Misan gusto mo lang talaga yung tao for reasons like mabait, maalaga, maaalalahanin, cute, maganda, and the list continues. 

Pero sa katagalan, when you spend too much time with the person and you get to know them better, may mga umuusbong na damdamin. Sometimes, love comes after liking someone. Siguro sa iba they believe in love at first sight, pero most of the time nagsisimulang madevelop lang naman when they make you smile or feel special diba?

So far, feel ko, I'm always playing it safe. Never taking a risk. Always choosing friendship over romantic relationships. Which I think kasi is the best thing, at least you don't loose them right? Mas maganda pa rin na cool Lang kayo, walang ilangan pag naghahang out. All the good stuff, kahit na pag tiningnan mo siya, you wish you can tell the person how much they mean to you.

Yun nga lang, you end up single. But who cares, anyways at the end of the day, if you're meant to be, then you'll be together eventually. Pwede din naman single ka but you have mutual understanding with someone. Then maybe it can lead to a relationship at the right time diba? Hindi naman kasi minamadali yan. 

There will be lots of possibilities, can't state everything because it all depends on the situation. Ang point lang dito is when you fall in love, it won't always be reciprocated. It's either, you love them but they don't love you, or they love you but you don't love them. Complicated right? But that's how it is.

Sa laro ng pag-ibig di lahat nananalo, but pag natyempuhan mo, jackpot!

Always be ready lang, focus on yourself and be your better version. Because love might just be lurking somewhere. Gulat mo na lang, andyan na pala siya sa harap mo, waiting for you na mapansin mo.

Wow! Sana ganun na nga lang. But trust me, sometimes love comes when you least expected it and sometimes with someone you never thought you'll fall in love with...

-GhabbieGee 2014