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DRT

Deformity. Reformity. Transformation.

According to the priest, this is the process of change. We all go through a lot of challenges in life and if we want to achieve the change that we are hoping for, we have to go through this process. It won't be easy but at the end of the day, it's all going to be worth it.

Let me get this straight, this has nothing to do with religion nor society's standards. This is me simply sharing my thoughts hoping it might help others who are or have been going through the same thing.

I was smiling after realizing that what's happening now is part of the process about the change that I wanted to achieve. It's not about going back to my old self where everything seems to be fine, simply because it was my comfort zone. This is more of the change towards self-improvement and self-realization. What I need is to take everything that I experienced and learned from the past and use them in my journey towards self-growth.

I admit at some point, I got stuck in a routine. It was similar to a rat race, a never-ending one. I was like a rat trying to achieve something but in reality, it's just going round in circles. So now that I realized the situation, I'm hoping to find my way to get out of that system. The system that consumed everything in me. Left me with all those bruises and scars.

One day I said to myself, I want my life to be more meaningful. I wanted to spend my life into things that truly matters. I wanted to step out from the comfort zone that I created for a few years that later on led me into losing myself.

Last year was very challenging, I had issues here and there. At some point they were all trying to break me into pieces. I felt like I was drowning and no one was there to save me. I felt so alone and hopeless. I pity myself and so I badly wanted to break free. Then I realized there only one way to make things right, so I asked for His help to save me.

I prayed every single day for the Lord to lead me to the path where I should be. I always believe that He is all-knowing and that He always has a better plan for me. He provided me with stength, guidance and also sent people to walk with me in my journey. 

I know that I can't have everything but I got what I need and at most times, more than what I prayed for.

It wasn't easy to focus on things that only we can control. It takes wisdom to identify such. But I was so eager to move forward in life and so when things get rough and when I don't understand it anymore, I would simply let go and let God direct my path.

It was not perfect, it was not smooth. I was doing great on some things while I suck on the rest. I tried to do everything that I can to make it work. With perseverance and hope, days become weeks then months - alas, I was surviving.

All those times, there were moments that I wanted to give up. I'm just thankful that He never fails to send His angels to remind me of how blessed I am despite the trials that I'm facing each day.

We can't always get what we want and it will not always be how we want it to happen. But we can hope for the best, pray for His guidance and get into the action. 

Now I understand that everything that I went through and will go through are all important for my transformation. I wanted a meaningful life, I wanted a better version of myself. Therefore, I should change myself - the way I think and act to achieve my goal. To be humbled and start from the bottom. To work on it in every step until I get to the top, and eventually be able to share it with the people that I love. 

It's still going to be a long journey ahead and I am prepared for it. 

So if you are on a rocky road now, be thankful, because good things are coming your way. Just believe in Him and with yourself.

You are stronger than what you think. God bless you!

-GhabbieGee2019-