All For You

To My Almost

As a writer, I should be good with words. I should be able to express whatever is inside my mind and my heart, but with you, everything became different.

I know we just recently met but the connection that we had was something I can't explain. You clearly captured my attention and everything else followed.

I can't even utter words that express how much happiness you have brought to my life since I met you. Suddenly, all the songs I sing are about you. Every song on my playlist is dedicated to you. Suddenly waking up each day is exciting because, by the end of the day, I will see your lovely face again. 

Instead of focusing on composing the right words, I chose to make you feel how much you mean to me. Every moment I get to spend with you is an opportunity for me to express how I feel. Seeing that smile on your face and eyes melts all the questions and insecurities in me.

I know we're just friends, and trust me, I'm happy with that. It's just that, I also think you have the right to know my true feelings. It's not really because I want us to be more than friends but because I strongly believe that you deserve the truth.

I just realized one day, that I'm feeling something that I shouldn't be.

Trust me, I had fights with my mind and would sometimes think of just forgetting about it. Afraid that it will make things complicated and of eventually losing you.

I doubted myself, thinking that I might have just been overwhelmed with how you are making me feel. That maybe you're just being friendly and that the actions are mere expressing of your friendliness. That may be, I was just seeing the signals or the actions differently. Maybe I'm at fault here. Maybe it was all me.

I'm afraid because I know where this is heading, but I can't stop it anymore. I can't hide it forever.

Forgive me, if I crossed the line and fell in love with you.

It was never planned, it just happened. 

I will understand if, after this, you'll walk away and leave. I will accept it but still with a broken heart. But I know one day, I get through it. After all, maybe, I deserve it because I let my guard down. I'm not expecting anything after this. Just know that I will still be a friend that you can rely on in case you need me.

Keep safe!