Maybe it was fate

Chapter 27

That night i was woken up by Riley screaming. I ran downstairs to find Luke standing by her. She was holding her head rocking back and forth crying and screaming when someone tried to touch her. "What the hell happened?" I asked Luke.

"I dont know, i heard a crash and then her screaming."

"A crash." I looked around the room confused.

"I think it came from the bathroom." He said. I walled into the bathroom to find a broken vase laying on the floor. I ran back into the room realizing it was her flash backs.

"Riley." I grabbed her arms and she squirmed.

"No dont hurt me please." She squealed. I pulled her into a hug and sat on the floor until she calmed down. "Im sorry." She cried. "Im so sorry." She kept crying. After she settled down and stopped crying i layed her in bed. I turned on her lamp and shut the door. Ashton walked up pulling me into a hug.

"You need to go lay down, all this stress isnt good for the babies." He kissed my head and i nodded looking back at Rileys door. "Ill watch Riley." He insured and i nodded walking upstairs to our room. I layed down and put my hands on my stomach.

"Im sorry." I cried softly. "Im sorry for the stress and promises i cant keep." I said thinking of Riley, telling her it would get better. "Im just sorry." I closed my eyes remembering i hadnt gotten much sleep. I layed silently not knowing what time it was. Ashton came in under the impression i was sleeping. He went in the bathroom and took some advil. I knew he had gotten more sleep than me but it still wasnt much. He walked back and layed down on the bed.

"Calum is watching Riley." He whispered. "Goodnight, i love you." He kissed my temple. Does he always talk to me while im sleeping? I wondered but my thoughts were cut off by me finally falling asleep.

Its March now

The flashbacks and nightmares are getting worse, she's having them everyday atleast 4 times a day. She hasnt been going to school because she's not getting enough sleep which makes her flashbacks worse. Alex thinks she has strep. She refuses to tell anyone and refuses to try therapy.

"I can fix this myself!" She yelled before going to take a shower. Why is she fighting me on this. She just needs to let me help her. I heard a thud in the bathroom then a scream. She opened the door and walked out. "Sorry, i dropped the shampoo." She shut the door sadly. I flung myself back on the couch. The boys have had rehearsal pretty much all week, Bri was visiting family, and Morgan and Jordynn were looking at colleges so ive been dealing with this basically all by myself. I walked to the bathroom door and knocked. "Come in." Riley called out. The water was running but she wasnt in yet.

"Why are you on the floor?" I asked.

"The waters too hot." She sighed.

"Riley you need to try therapy." I begged i was waiting for her to yell and scream at me but she just sat in silence. "I think it will help you." I placed my hand on her shoulder.

"But i cant." She cried. "I cant let people know what happened to me and get questioned why i didnt tell anyone because i dont know the answer." She began crying uncontrollably.

"Then say that, they'll understand, they'll help you cope with your flashbacks and not have break downs." I lifted her head so i could see her face. "Just let them help you." I said and she nodded. I kissed her head and got off the floor. "Ill make some calls, you take a shower." I left shutting the door. I layed on the couch to watch some tv before i knew it i had drifted to sleep.

"Madison!" Calum shook me violently.

"What." I rolled over not opening my eyes.

"Where's Riley?" He said panicking and i shot up.

"What do you mean?" I ran to her room to see an empty bed. "She was in the shower when i fell asleep." I pulled out my phone, it was 5 o' clock. "That was 2 hours ago." The other boys came running to her room.

"We've searched every inch of this house, she's not here!" Luke yelled. I looked around the room frantically and saw a peice of paper on the couch.

Madison,
Im sorry for leaving but i just couldnt do it anymore. Thank you for all your help and for trying but it wasnt working. I love you and tell everyone i love them too. I dont know where im going or when i'll be back or even if ill be back, only fate knows so i guess we'll find out.
Love me or hate me,
Riley.

I dropped the note and fell to the couch crying. Ashton came and held me while the other boys read the note. "She's gone." I repeated shaking. "Someone call the cops." I stood up and everyone looked at me. "Come on, we need to do something." I walked to the kitchen and grabbed my keys.

"Madison you cant drive." Michael grabbed my arm and i pulled away.

"I have to go find my cousin!" I screamed walking to the door. Calum chased after me and wrapped his arms around mine so i couldnt go any further. "Calum let go of me right now!" I squirmed out of his arms and ran out side. Why were they trying to stop me i unlocked my car and was grabbed before i could get in. "Ashton let go!" I squirmed.

"Madison you need to listen its not safe for you to be driving right now, you're under alot of stress and this isnt good for the babies." He tried explaining but i didnt care.

"My cousin is in trouble and needs my help now let go!" I pulled my arm out of his grip. I got in the car and he ran to the other side opening the door.

"Then im going with you." He buckled his seat belt and looked ahead. I wanted to apologize but i didnt, i just drove trying to find my cousin. I didnt know how long ago she left or how far she was but i would find her.

I kinda hate myself for this chapter .-.