Cyber Love

Chapter 6

“To: Darin@mail.co.uk

From: Jean@mail.co.uk

Hi Darin,

It’s Jean from choir. How are you? I hope you’re doing fine.

I just want to ask if maybe you could tell me when we will have our extra session for our duet. Sorry, I’m asking but I kind of forgot it.

Bye,

Jean”

“Do you want to send this email?”

Yeah, that’s a very good question my computer is asking me. Do I really want to send this mail?

Okay, I’ll do it know! Okay!

“Your mail has been sent.”

Okay, fine! That’s great. It is, isn’t it?

I’m not so sure if this was the right thing to do, to send him this email. But I mean, why not?

I just want to know when our next session will be. That should be totally fine.

But I can’t figure out why I am losing my way. I’m going crazy.

I can’t think of anything else now the email is sent. Weird...

“I’ve seen him today in the morning before the bell rang. He was probably a bit late because he was rushing up to the main entrance and you know what he did? Do you KNOW?” Vicky is asking as it was the most important thing you should know if you want to survive.

“No, I don’t Vicky! I could I know? I haven’t seen it. That’s why you’re telling me this story, aren’t you?”

“Right. You should have seen it though! Big mistake you made. You should have stayed five minutes longer before you left me to watch this glorious scene alone. You know that...”

“Vicky! Come on and tell me what he did!” I am interrupting her because I realize how she starts another story.

“Sorry! I just wanted to make sure that you understand what big mistake it was...” I am giving her a meaningful look. “... Okay, I’ll tell you now if you’re so cutty. He shook his hair! He is so sexy!”

There I am: I am feeling weird again as I imagine him... I mean Darin. He still has a name and I think I should use it some time.

In the picture I just created in my head he really looks fantastic. So sexy! I still don’t want to show Vicky that I think the same way she does, though.

She has always been the overexcited and crazy one. I am just the silent and normal type or I should better say I always have been.

Every time I think about Darin it seems like all my familiar feelings and generally everything I know about myself is gone. It is like my personality which has lived in me for such a long time now has decided to jump out of me just for a little break after 15 years.

It is weird!

“I don’t really understand the speciality about that. Probably I just can’t imagine what you mean.” I am answering because I don’t want her to know how messy I actually am inside.

I know she is my best friend. But some things are even too crazy to tell her even though I am normally telling her everything but this is just too crazy.

“Probably! If you would have seen it you would be as in love as I am now.” She smiles at me like that would improve everything. But actually it does the opposite.

She is in love? WITH HIM? NO!! Wait! Why does it matter? It is not like she is not allowed to. But... I don’t want her to be in love!

I look at my watch just to overact this uncomfortable situation.