What's your damage?| Bmc in the style of heathers✔

freeze your brain

⚠️TW: Insults/homophobic insults/ violence/swear words⚠️

POV  Rich

Oh fuck oh fuck what have I done?! I fucking PUNCHED my best friend! You aren't any better than your dad or...I don't know. I thought and felt how I started tearing up.

Jakd was the one who got you out of your fucking grave of sadness!

Obviously regretting almost everything I did, I walked to my locker and got my 'necessary' stuff out of it because I wanted nothing more than just run away, away from everything.

The moment I reached the exit, Chloe walked into my way and stopped me.

''What do you want?'' I asked annoyed and frowned when I saw into her up and down looking eyes which made me feel uncomfortable.
Yes even someone like me made that uncomfortable.
''I've been to ten highschools, they start to get blurry. No point-planig roots 'cause you're gone in a hurry,'' Chloe began to sing and came closer.

Knowing how Chloe was able to be, I pushed her a bit away and was finally able to open the exit.
''My dad keeps two suitcases packed in the den, so it's only a matter of wheeeen!'' Chloe shouted singing after me when I was almost running away at home.

I was not even two blocks away from my own home when I looked at my phone, just to see that my dad would be still at home at this time.

''Fuck what are you gonna do Rich?'' I asked myself, already shaking a bit when I thought about what would happen if he'd find out that I skipped a few lessons.

''Don't end up like this little f**s which have no education and'll end up alone!'' My dad screamed and I winced. I was only 14, what would i've been capable of to do?
When I remember that situation from a few years ago I got chills and felt how I was tearing up again.

If he'd find out you are bi af he'd probabaly beat your ass so that you'd never be able to fucking walk again! I thought and swallowed my tears down.

Instead of walking home, I turned around and went to the direction of Jakes house.
But when I remembered the fight we had, I turned around again and sat down on a bench in the park.

Wow now you're completely alone. Well done man.

I pretended to type on my phone so that people wouldn't think I was a 'freak' or a 'loser'.
I sighed and looked up the sky.

When I saw a shadow over my view I frowned and sat up again, just to see that it was Michael who looked at me surprised.

''Hey Rich,'' he greeted me and I showed him a weak smile.
''Hi.'' I said and was able to see just at the look in his eyes that he was worried about something.
''Are you okay? You look really bad.'' Michael asked worried and I had to grin while looking at him.
''So it's nothing new.'' I just answered while Michael just stood there completely confused.
''What..?'' He asked and sat down next to me so that I was able to hear a quiet noise out of his headphones which he almost always since freshman year wore.

How do I even know that?

''You know se(the) 'you look bad' senthence(sentence)'' I lisped and slapped myself because of that.

What the fuck are you thinking to show that?!

''Did you just slap and insult yourself?!'' Michael asked shocked whereupon I just shrugged and looked straight into his pretty brown, worried looking, eyes.
''Obviously,'' I sighed and looked away, blushing a bit because of the eye contact we just had and because of my embarrassing about my lisping.
''You aren't bad looking and why did you slap yourself?!'' Michael didn't stop asking and I raised my hand to stop him.
''Wanna hang outh(out)?'' I asked carefully, still looking away.
''You? With me?''  He asked surprised and I finally looked at him.
Instead of seeing a disgusted look I saw how he looked more excited and that made me feel a lot better.
''Yes!'' I laughed and grinned at him.
''I know what to do!'' Michael stood up and pointed into one direction behind me.

''Seems ev'ry time I'm about to despair
There's a 7-Eleven right thereeeee!'' Michael sang and grabbed me by my arm.
''Every shop is the same, from Las Vegas to Buston.'' I joined singing and he facepalmed.
''Linoleum aisles that I love to get lost in!'' He just continued and  pulled me forward.

When we arrived at the shop Michael jumped excited up and ordered a Slushy from what I had to grin.
''I pray at my altar of sluuuush, yeah I live for that sweet frozen ruuuush!''
''You really admire that shit am I right?'' I laughed and got a soft slap on my arm from him while he drank a bit.

''Freeze your braaain!  Suck on that straw, get lost in the paaaain,'' Michael sang admiring. To be honest I wasn't really sure if that was ironic or serious, while he almost ran out of the shop, still pulling me after him.

''Happiness comes when everything numbs, you mean?'' I sang and Michael giggled a bit which I thought was really cu- funny.

''Who needs cocaine? Freeze your braaain!'' Michael sang loud and bought me, against me saying yes to it, also a Slushy.
''Michael I-'' I wanted to start but he just shook his head, waiting for me to join.
''Freeze your braiiin?'' I sang insecure and Michael laughed happily while nodding.

Is it weird that I am happy when he is happy?

''Care for a hit?'' He asked smiling and I just rolled my eyes while smiling back.

POV Michael

To be honest, it was really good to hang out with someone who isn't always the same person. Maybe we can be friends again?

''Does your Mommy know you eat all that crap?'' I asked jokingly when Richs smile got less and he looked away.
''Not anymore.. When mom was alive, we lived halfway normal! But now it's just me and..my daaaad,'' He sang quietly and I wasn't able to hold myself back anymore. I walked over to him and hugged him which obviously surprised him a lot.

''We're less formal..I learned to cook pasta! I learned to pay rent! Learned the world doesn't owe you a cent!'' Rich continued and walked fastly down the road where I followed him.

''You're planning your future, Michael Mell, You'll go to some college and marry a lawyer..'' Rich sighed and walked backwards, singing quietly. It almost looked like he tried to hide something behind his words but I was probably just thinking way too much.

''But the sky's gonna hurt when it falls, so you better start building some walls!'' Rich was now almost screaming his singing and I had to grin about that because it looked kinda cute.

Maybe you should slap yourself now Michael!

''Freeze your brain, swim in the ice, get lost in the pain!'' I smiled and held his hand, not knowing why exactly I did it.

He looks sad, that's the only reason.

''Shut your eyes tight, till you vanish from sight, let nothing remain.'' Rich sang, this time looking obviously sad and I began to get really worried.

''Freeze your braaaaain, shatter your skull
Fight pain with more pain!'' I joined and took a sip from my slushy.

''Forget who you are, unburden your load, forget in six weeks you'll be back on the roaaad-

POV Rich

-When the voice in your head says you're better off dead don't open a veiiiin,'' I sang, following a weird voice which came up in my head, telling me which words fit the best.

The hell?! I thought to myself and almost winced when I got an answer.
You are surprised?  The voice asked and I looked around, catching Michael who looked really worried at me.

Shaking my head, I showed michael to just continue. What he did. I was thankful he did!

''Just freeze your braaaain freeze your braaain go on and freeze your braaain!'' Try it!'' Michael sang in his lovely voice and I smiled.

''Wanna go at mine?'' He asked and I nodded happily.

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