What's your damage?| Bmc in the style of heathers✔

Our love is god 1/2

⚠️TW: Violence/ death/ swear words⚠️

POV Michael

''It is!'' I gasped and swallowed down my tears.
''It's my fault that he ran back into he fire, since when is he unconscious?'' I sighed and felt how my lip began to shake again.
I looked at the others in the room but no one dared to answer.
''Guys?'' I asked again and Jake cleared his throat while sitting up.

''He was the whole time awake, well, until your heartbeat stopped for a few minutes..'' Jake answered quietly and I gulped heavily.
''Wha- what?'' I asked whispering and wasn't able to hold my tears back anymore.
''See! It is my fault!'' I shouted and stood stumbling up to walk over to Richs bed even though the nurse tried to hold me back.
''Let me fucking GO to him!'' I screamed and sat down at his bed before I began to sing.

''They made you cry, but that will end tonight, you are the only thing that's right about this broken world.. go on and cry, but when the morning comes, we'll burn-'' I shook my head and changed the lyrics.
''We'll break It down and then we'll build the world agaaaain! I continued with tears in my eyes.

All my fucking fault.

''Our love is god.'' Someone prayed and then I heard Jake asking quietly,
''Are you okay?''

I just shook my head as answer and closed my eyes to avoid eye contact with Jake who sat on the other side of Richs bed.
''I was alone, I was a frozen laaake but then you me(l)lted me awake, see now i'm crying toooo!'' I laughed sadly while the first tears ran down my cheeks but I wiped them away with the back of my hand.
''You're not alone,''

''You're not alone.'' Jake joined quietly and when I opened my eyes again he showed me a weak smile but I looked away.

''And when the morning comes, we'll wipe away that tear and raise our city heeere,'' I sighed singing quietly while trying to ignore my Moms which were probabaly really confused.

''Raise our city heeeere.''

The moment I wanted to continue, my phone rang and I winced but wasn't open for answering.
''It's Jeremy.'' My Mom Evelyn said and gave me the phone in my hand.
''But I don't want to ans-''
''Do it.''

I sighed and tapped on the 'accept' button.

M: ''yeah?'' I scoffed, still having tears in my eyes.
J: '' Oh god you are awake?!''
M: ''obviously..''
J: ''That's amazing dude!''
M: ''What do you care?'' I snapped and grabbed in reflex after Richs hand.

What are you even doing??

J: ''What..?'' I heard how he got more quiet in his voice tone and I swallowed down a few of my tears.
M: ''Oh is your squip gone now? You know, Rich had or has a Squip and haven't treated me like shit. So why did you do it?!'' I almost yelled but remembered the other people in the room.
J: '' Michael listen, i'm sorry okay?''
M:'' What do you expect me to say now? Something like a 'omg I love you are we now best friends again'!?'' I recognised how the others went out of the room so that I was able to talk to him more or less alone.
J: ''I'm just telling you that I'm really sorry-''

The moment he said that, I felt how someone or something squeezed my hand so I turned around and saw how Rich had his eyes opened a little bit and I screamed in a high pitched voice.
''Rich?! What?!'' I asked and began to cry again because of what he hugged me and I could've bet that i was dreaming if there wouldn't have been Jeremy who was still on call.

J: ''Did Rich now wake up? Ugh'' Jeremy said before he hung up the call.

''I thought I killed you,'' I whispered and shook my head.
''Funny 'cause I sought(thought) I killed you,'' He lisped and I looked at him.
''Wait what?''
Rich just sighed and looked away.
''I-.. I was the one who set this stupid fire Mikey, I'm sorry. It's all my fault.'' Rich whispered and I remembered how I began to smell smoke when I was in Jakes bathroom and then a bit later how my breathing got heavier. Then just 'lights off'.
''If I wouldn't have stayed in that stupid bathroom 'cause I was upset, nothing of that would've happened.'' I gave him a weak smile and then heard how someone opened the door, so we backed off and an awkward silence was created.

''Rich!'' Jake shouted and ran to him for hugging him.
''Hey man.'' Rich greeted him back and I recognised the tears which were already down his cheeks.

Did he also cry?

''We thought we lost you,'' Jake muttered crying a little and I could've bet that no one ever saw him crying before.
''Well, thadly(sadly) you all won't get rid of me that easy,'' Rich laughed and I had to grin.
''I don't think anybody wants to get rid of you,'' Jake answered, also laughing and looked at me.
''Right Michael?''
I nodded and sighed in relief.

''Thomething(something) else I missed?'' Rich asked and looked around.
''Well if Michael who drove crazy 'cause a nurse didn't want him to stand up counts, then yes.'' Jake laughed and I blushed a bit.
''That wasn't my fault!'' I joined the laughing and rolled my eyes.
''Why did no one film sssat(that)?'' Rich asked and almost slapped himself again if there wouldn't have been Jake and me who pulled his hand down.
''Whoa, you both are teaming up against me!'' Rich recognised and looked at us surprised and I couldn't resist to smile.

Maybe now everything is gonna be okay?

POV Jeremy

''Such a,'' I digged a hole in the garden and shouted.
''God damn,'' I scoffed annoyed.
''Idiot!''
When I stood up and looked around I wasn't even able to realize what I did at first.

You fucking killed a guy!?
OH no no no no no!

I told you you won't get rid of me that easy.
Fuck you! What the hell! I killed him! What?!
Why?! WHAT was the reason to KILL Dustin?!
It was necessary.
WHAT THE HELL?! NO!
Trust me, i'm your inner voice, in your brain. I know your needs.
What am I gonna do now?! I'm gonna get taken to prison! Fuck fuck!
No, not when we have a plan.
Ugh.
You'll get an idea soon.

''Our love is god''

Word count: 1104