What's your damage?| Bmc in the style of heathers✔

In your eyes

Something special: I won't use every line from this song, I'm in the moment, where I write this, in a car(i'm not driving) and the song came on and gave me loads of ideas, yeah thats it!  Love y'all and have a great quarantine! This may or may not be a 'happy' chapter (depends, if u read for boyf riends it's ur dead)

POV Michael

Rich and I walked after my Moms into our house and I couldn't get the thoughts out of my head.

Why do you care so much? You should be concerned about Jeremy but all you can think about is helping Rich, why?

I showed him with my hand to go upstairs into my room and that I'll follow in a few moments.
When Rich arrived in my room, I turned around to my Moms which already looked at me in surprise.
''So? No Jeremy?'' Charlie asked and raised an eyebrow while grinning.
''Obviously,'' I sighed and shook my head, pretending a smile so that they wouldn't ask questions.
''Since when do you guys hang?'' Evelyn asked now and I rolled my eyes.
''Can you just please not tell his Dad that he's here?'' I just asked and looked away so that they wouldn't be able to see how worried I actually was.
''Why not?'' Charlie raised an eyebrow and I looked at her disapproving.
''Isn't that obvious?'' I just sighed and almost ran upstairs.

I opened my door carefully and saw how Rich sat at the floor and looked around in my room until he recognised me.
''Hi.'' I said and sat down next to him.
''Hey,'' He greeted back and cleared his throat while looking to me.
''So?'' Rich added and smiled a bit what caused me to smile too.
''What?'' I grinned confused and laughed a little.
''I thought a bit about everything,'' Rich began and laughed awkwardly because of what I raised an eyebrow confused.
''You know that feeling like you're like a ghost of you, like you've been drowning in the rain, slowly saving up the pain so deep inside of you?'' He turned around to me, his red hair hair stripe falling a bit forward so that it was hanging infront of his eye from what he sighed annoyed.
''Yeah?'' I giggled a bit when I saw how Rich tried to blow the stripe away but failed so he just grinned at me a bit.
''What do you mean?'' I asked again and tried to figure out what was going on in his mind.
''I can feel a fire come alive, tho(so) calm before the thtorm(storm)!'' He sang quietly and ironically from what I was really surprised.
I mean, Rich Goranksi joking about fire?

''Oh I can see the fire in your eyes,'' I laughed and shook my head from what he punched me and I jumped up.
''Ay!'' I shouted and looked at him Admonishingly.
Rich just laughed and laid down at the floor, arching from laughing.
''Let's play a game on my Xbox!'' I proposed and held my hand at Rich to help him stand up.
When he grabbed after my hand and stood up, he had so much momentum that we nearly fell down at the floor.
''Careful!'' I shouted but Rich just rolled his eyes.
''Which game?'' He asked and got weirdly quiet.
''Uh I thought about apocalypse of the dammed, but if you don't like it we can also play minec-'' I talked fastly but Rich shut me up with coming closer and kissing me.

Wait wait wait, I- that's not real right?

Instead of backing off, I reciprocated it and gasped after that.
''I dunno why I did that I'm sor-'' Rich already said but I shook my head and kissed him again.
''Michael I think I'm in love with you.'' Rich said quietly and my heart began to beat fastly.

THATS why you care you dork! You feel!

''You think?'' I asked instead of answering what I actually had in my mind, because of what I could have punched myself.
''No I know.'' Rich blushed and looked away.
''I-'' I gulped and grabbed after his hand.
''I love you too.'' I said softly and smiled a bit.
''You do?'' Rich asked and looked at me while I just nodded as an answer.
''But no one actually does.'' Rich stood up and shook his head wildly.
I also stood up and held his arm.
''But I do, many people surely do!'' I smiled weakly but he was somehow crying.
''No no no that's not true! My brother left me, my dad hates me, you have Jeremy, Jake just wants to embarrass me-'' The moment Rich shouted this I just recognised how broken he actually was, which someohow also broke my heart.
''Rich stop! I don't love Jeremy okay? I love you, for who you are. I don't know your brother but I'm sure he also loves you a lot and Jake wanted to kiss you though, he also loves you,'' I said and held his hands tightly.
''You are perfect how you are okay?''
I felt how my eyes began to fill with tears just by thinking how hard it had to be for him with all those thoughts the whole time while I had no idea.

''See, that's what I mean, I don't deserve that, you.'' He laughed sadly and I looked sad at the shorter one.
''That's not true Rich,'' I shook my head.
''I wanna be with you, only you. No Jeremy, no one else, only you! And now there's nothing left to lose, so we're breaking all the rules and they don't know what we know!'' I grinned and fixed Richs hair stripe.
''Thanks Mikey.'' Rich smiled weakly and sat down on my bed.
''Nothing to thank about.'' I smiled and sat down next to him where Rich laid his head on my shoulder and sighed.
''I don't wanna lose you, ever.'' Rich whispered and I showed him a weak smile.
''You won't lose me.''
''Promise?''
''Promise.''