A DARE TO YOU

CHAPTER 4

(by this point, I am having Chimon's point of view. so in this story, there would be 3 povs. Nanon, Chimon, and of course by third person which is me and someone I will use soon. I just want y'all to know how they react and what their reaction was, or just know something related about them. so I hope this povs that I am doing will help y'all.)

Nanon:
'I'm Nanon, btw.'

nan laki ang mata ko sa nabasa ko. wait— does he mean, Nanon Napawat? like the Nanon I, I like?!

not to be straightforward but yeah, I have like this man since then. it just so sudden to fall in love when this man just made me land on the ground and hurt my butt. I was having a bad day that time but when I saw his face, I kind of feel relax out of nowhere that I got confused also. because how would I feel relaxed by just seeing his face? not gonna lie he's handsome and his appearance is really thick, but the sudden slow-motion that happened there, I doubt that it was natural.

I've always seen him somewhere, minsan niya na rin kasama si Ohm. I just know that guy's name because I was once heard it off when they're bickering in front of me choosing what they're gonna eat for dinner.  and since then, I've always want to know his doing and so on about him that made me even confused at my actions until my friends blurted out that I might like the guy.

they were right. I like him. he caught my attention and wanted to know him more from a far. sometimes it kinda pain me because I was so hopeless to him, and at this day, I am really shocked.

he called me last night that my mother knows because my phone just keep on ringing when she paid visit in my room, she was about to answer it but she saw it was an unknown phone number kaya hinayaan nalang niya. and of course, I got confused who would that be kaya tinawagan ko and found out it was him.

Nanon.

I don't know what to do next so I just leave it like that, and after so, my dad came in.

"we will leave in a min. get ready, okay?" saad nito at hindi na pumasok pa sa loob ng kwarto ko.

I nodded to him at syaka niya isinara ang pinto, nang makitang naka sara na ito nahiga ulit ako sa higaan ko at tumitig nalang sa ceiling.

we're now going to my own dorm, binilhan na nila ako and I'll live there starting from now on because they have business trip overseas. hindi rin ako pwede sa bahay because I might end up kill my self if I was alone there, so they let me live on my own for my peace.

I am a son of a wealthy family. it's not that I am not happy about them being my parents, hindi lang talaga ako masaya how they express their love towards me.

I'm not a materialistic child. pero they always give me a material that supposed to be their loves to me. I don't want anything na material, just them. I just want their attention, care, and feel the comforts that parents should give to their children, but none of them I received so it's kinda sad and depressing.

but it's alright. I got used to it na. kaya it doesn't matter anyway.

I sighed when I heard Manang Lili called me, tumayo na ako at pinag-masdan muli ang sarili ko sa salamin bago ko kunin ang maleta at bumaba na.

then there I saw my parents waiting for me with their genuine smiles that makes me feel teary a bit. I'll miss my parents for sure.

dahan dahan ako lumapit dito and they both welcomed me in their arms and engulfed me in a family hug. and without any thoughts, I cried in their arms.

bakit ngayon ko lang naramdaman 'to? not gonna lie I haven't feel their love since then, pero right now? I finally feel it and it was a bit overwhelming.

ganto pala feeling na mayakap ng magulang with pure love. ang gaan sa loob, sana laging ganito.

pero it just last in minutes before they pulled out, "mag iingat ka palagi, ha?" tanda ni mama sa akin na tinanguan ko naman, "tawagan mo lang kami, sasagot kami." dagdag naman ni papa.

I bid goodbyes to them bago ako pumasok sa sasakyan, ibinaba ko muna yung bintana at nag b-bye ulit when I heard them speak as the car starts moving.

"I love you, our son."

and that made me burst out in tears. ang tagal kong hinintay yun, yung words na yun, bakit sa gantong paraan pa na aalis sila at mag sasarili na ako.

malaki ang tampo ko sa magulang ko but it doesn't mean hindi ko na sila mahal, nag tatampo lang talaga ako.

there's a time I really wanted their attention because I was sick pero ni-isa wala man lang akong nakasama bukod kay Manang Lili na tumayo bilang magulang ko simula bata ako. and I'm glad that she's with me for all the times I am blaming the world.

it kinda sucks when you don't feel the love that your parents give. hindi ko talaga ramdam. hindi ko alam kung dahil parang wala lang talaga or I wasn't accepting the love that they're given to me? I don't know.

alam kong marami rin akong pag kukulang as their son, but could you blame me? I don't have parents when I needed them the most. I was all alone all the time, by my self most of the time, I don't even have many friends.

my life is suck but it's quite alright. I got used to it anyways.

I sighed deeply before looking at my phone's lock screen which is us. it was my 4th birthday at ayun lang ang tanging birthday ko na kompleto kami.

'mahal ko rin kayo, mapa.'