The blood secret

Chapter 5

It's been over a week since i last saw Finn, he hasn't come to school and i couldn't find him in the arcade. I tried calling him but it always went straight to voice mail and there was no point trying to ask around because i didn't know anyone who knew him, i mean i hardly knew him.

I remembered him saying something about a friend who worked at the arcade but i didn't have the courage to ask, for a moment Nick popped into my head but i soon pushed him out. In a weird way when i was with Finn it was like he was slowly mending the whole that had been left in my heart when my father had passed away, it felt nice knowing that someone cared and wanted to listen to me. Well that's what i thought, before Finn just upped and disappeared.

The last time i had spoke to him was when he had dropped me of home and even then, there was something off about the way he was acting. When he looked behind me i wasn't sure whether he had seen something or just didn't want to look at me but even so if that was the reason. Why? I don't think i did anything wrong or maybe he was trying to hide something from me but that's just my mind trying to come up with a reason that doesn't involve me. 

Today was our last day to work on the project, which i had done all on my own because of someone ditching me. All lesson i just sat there thinking about him, his dreamy eyes that can turn your thoughts to mush the minute you look into them and his bad boy charm that always had my heart racing out of control. In a way, Finn not being here actually affected me more than i thought it would. Most of the people in my life either have died or have left me and the thought of maybe loosing Finn, scared me.

I was getting annoyed that i was even thinking about him. I hadn't even known him long enough to be this upset, "What am i thinking." I quickly shot my hand over my mouth as i said that. Everyone in class was staring at me and the teacher gave me a look that said, "STOP TALKING, NOW." I mean i hardly even know him and i'm saying i can't live without him. Now, i know i'm loosing my mind.

The school day dragged on forever, it felt like it was never going to end. By the time, i got home it was already seven. Since Finn disappeared I've been staying after school everyday to finish of bits of work, anything to save me from going home. Ever since the fight at the arcade and my fight with sue, the house has had a dark feeling surrounding it and it was getting worse the more i stayed there.

When i got home i showered and made myself some dinner, it was nine o'clock by the time i had finished up everything and i was starting to get restless. I couldn't sit in my room because Blake insisted on blaring his music out loud and with Sue down stairs, there wasn't anywhere else for me to go. I kept thinking about going to the arcade but was still a little worried when ever i went there, i'd been a couple more times since the incident with nick and luckily whenever i went he wasn't there but neither was Finn.

After a few minutes of trying to talk myself out of going, i decided to goo and maybe, by chance Finn might be there. I prayed that Nick wouldn't be there but i knew my luck of missing i'm would run out soon.

I parked my car near the entrance and hopped out, each time i looked up at the glowing sign, i got a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I hated how much Finn's absence affected me, i didn't need him, i hardly even knew him. 

Since I've been coming here, I've kind of gotten to know the bouncer, apart from i still don't actually know his name but at least he lets me in for half the price. I think he knows why i keep coming here but i'm to embarrassed to ask him if that's the reason for him being so nice to me, when I've seen how he is with other girls who try to get in for half the price, by flirting or coming only half dressed.

I walked up to him and smiled, he was still wearing the same clothes from the first night i came here. It made me smile and i think he could see that ii was trying not to laugh but he didn't say anything, "Back again?" He said as i walked up to him.