'Til the sun comes up, we can own this town
Something like make-believe
Living in a movie scene.
In which,
Everything was so unpredictable but gave each-other the best years, but it was always easier for the two no matter what.
Or In which
She made...
Waking up is always a reminder, it was a reminder that you were alive, it always reminded you of something. For me, it was a reminder that i was a failure and that i had drank way to much alcohol, I let out a slight groan and curled into calum's side hearing him chuckle, I whined as he wrapped his arms around me.
"Good morning carter" he whispered, kissing my forehead, i smiled and lifted my head to look at him. "why cant we wake up like this every morning?" i mumbled and kissed his neck gently, he laughed and ran his fingers through my hair.
I hummed in satisfaction, resting my head on his shoulder. "i'm gonna shower, ill be out in a few minuets" i whispered.
"Can I come?" Calum laughed as he sat up,
"no gross, boy cooties" I blew him a kiss as i grabbed my clothes.
"oh cmon you'd love to see me all nakey nakey" I laughed and shook my head as i covered my face in embarrassment for him. "In your dreams, hood" I told him, closing my bathroom door.
After forcing myself not to vomit all the liquid up from last night i managed to gather my thoughts as i showered, what the hell was i going to do now? i didn't get my dream job and i never thought about what if? i was so certain i would've passed it.
Walking to the kitchen I grabbed myself a cup of coffee taking a sip as sierra and crystal walked in together. "Hey, good morning" I passed them their own cups and sighed deeply, closing my eyes for a brief second. "Ash must've told you guys?" They gave me a small smile and nodded, "yeah he did, i'm sorry to hear about it" I nodded and shrugged. "its fine really."
After eating breakfast the guys left as-well as Wren, which left me to cleaning last nights activities, Calum stayed to help me which i appreciated. I smiled as i watched Cal sing some random song as he washed the dishes.
I grabbed the tea towel and began to dry the dishes, "thank you for staying" I spoke up, looking at him as he nodded, "Anytime, but- also i wanted to talk with you" He stated, unplugging the sink.
"Last night, never have i ever- i wanted to know more about the whole drug thing" Calum wiped his hands down and leaned on the bench, i shrugged and bit the inside of my cheek. "Year ten, i told you how that wasn't a good year for me right?"
He nodded as i continued. "Something happened, and that was how i coped, I got into the wrong crowd and i used drugs as a coping mechanism." I shrugged and put the cups away.
"Okay, thank you for clearing that up." Calum left after lunch as he was called to a band meeting, I was alone, once again before hearing the front door slam open, looking at Wren i furrowed my eyebrows together. "what happened to you?" I pulled my blanket over me and looked back to my show. "Nothing, I just fell inside" She laughed and took a seat beside me.
Wren and i didn't do much besides watch movies all day, scrolling through my instagram I frowned as i came across this;
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calumhood; Sydney -> LA
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I was shocked, was that what his band meeting was about? Where they leaving, how long? I let out a breath of air, what did this mean?
Locking my phone I mumbled a quick goodbye to Wren as she headed to her afternoon class at uni, did she know? did ashton tell her earlier? For the remaining of the afternoon I pathetically sat on the couch with comfort food, trying not to let this get to me.
I wasn't purposely ignoring Calum but i just had no clue what to say, i mean the guy i liked was moving across the world to pursue his career while i stay here with my broken and now empty dreams.
"I mean, i shouldn't even be upset over it y'know, it not like me and Calum are even dating" i ranted to wren as she drove us to ash and calums house. "I don't know what we are, I mean look at me" I groaned and looked out the window.
As the car stopped I sighed and looked at wren, "remind me why we're here" she got out and opend my door, forcing me out of the car.
"They wanna talk to us" She whispered, grabbing my arm.
"I know they're leaving Wren." I muttered,
"Stop, Just listen to what they have to say."
Walking inside i was greeted with a happy duke at my feet, i smiled softly and picked up the dog, kissing his fur softly. "hi baby" setting him down, i watched as he ran off to Calum.
I didn't sit, i stood with my arms crossed as they guys spoke to us, i didnt want to hear it. i already knew.
"We're moving back to LA, we don't know if its temporary or permanently but we leave in two days" I was stunned, Wren sat with Ash- i quickly glanced as she kissed his cheek, taking his hand in her own.
"we went ahead and brought you guys tickets so you can come see us whenever you like" Ashton cleared his throat, handing wren an envelope before going on with more information about everything.
All I could do was nod, pressing my lips into a thin line i shrugged, "i'm happy for you guys" i whispered, looking over the city- ignoring the feeling of their eyes on me.
"Oh for fu*k sake, Carter. Stop being a bit*ch, just because your dreams didn't work doesn't mean they should stop with theirs, you're being selfish. Not everything's about you, get over yourself" I was taken aback by Wrens outburst, nodding slowly I looked at her, this wasn't her.
"Ill be outside if you need me" I pulled my jumper around me tighter, I opened the backdoor and sat beside the pool and wiped the tears that had fallen.
"I like you alot Carter" I sniffled and looked up as cal sat beside me. "And I really want to stay how we are for now, i see myself having a future with you but i'm just not ready to become your boyfriend, but for now- i want to try, come see me in a few weeks, this hurts me just as much as it hurts you." I nodded and leaned my head on his shoulder.
"Im willing to try" I whispered, grabbing his hand. "Even if it hurts, i want to try- i don't want these two months to go to waste." Feeling him kiss my head i let a few silent tears slip down my face.
How did we end up here?
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To be honest, i have a love hate relationship with this chapter, but what did you think?
will they be able to make it work ? i wanna hear your opinions :(
