Blind Trust (MewGulf)

Chapter 1: Why should I keep trying?

Several months ago

Mew POV

Everyone in the BL fandom knew Mew Suppasit.

He was one of the most talented newbie actors in 2018. He landed a part in the popular series "What the Duck?" as one of the main characters.

Even though he had been in the entertainment industry for a few years, and made little cameos here and there, being Pree (his character's name) was what made him popular in the BL world. More, after that famous proposal scene in bed.

He alongside his fellow actor (who we're not going to name), were automatically shipped by the fans. Being in a ship couple meant a lot of things for them. Sponsorships, events, or even the chance of being in another series together. And they actually hit it off. They found a lot of things in common and had a really good time doing vlogs and lives on SNS. Fans were going crazy with their interactions.

They even got the chance to be in the second season of "What the Duck?".

But... everything that goes up... must come down, right?.

Mew opened his eyes as he woke up from his nap. Something was making a silly noise. He tried to clear his eyes with his hand as he searched for the insulting noise. It felt like his eyes were made of sand.

- What in the world...? - he mumbled to himself.

He continued to rattle his bed in search of his phone, probably the one making the noise. A call, he assumed.

Finally, after a good 5 minutes, Mew finally found his cellphone, even though it already had stopped ringing. Unlocking his phone, he looked at the notifications on the screen.

2 missed calls: P'Boss.

Sighing, Mew looked at the hour.

6:00 PM.

It was late afternoon. He napped for 2 hours. He must have been really tired if he was able to sleep 2 hours in a row. He woke up early that day to go to a couple of auditions. He was planning on taking a side character with little screen time. The first one wasn't that bad, it was for a horror series placed in a school. He auditioned to be a teacher. The character was simple and had only a bunch of lines, it was something he could do in his sleep.

But he got cut out in the second round.

The second audition was for a BL series. It was like a remake of a very popular series. They wanted to make the whole thing from the beginning and to continue with the story. Everyone knew the series was going to be a big deal. So he put every single skill he had into his audition. And Mew had hoped he could get a part. Even a small one.

But he was pretty sure he didn't.

Tired and frustrated, he had got into his car and went home. The past months hadn't been nice on him. Everything was going to hell in his professional and personal life. He went from one of the most popular actors in Thailand to nobody in less than a week.

What had happened you ask?

That was a long story. One that isn't its time to tell yet.

But, fan's opinions are something that shouldn't be underestimated. They can give you strength and make you feel like you rule the world, or they can destroy you in a minute. Opinions are important when you live in this kind of world. Your reputation is everything. And if you go down... it's not easy to go back up.

Mew got up from his bed and went to the bathroom to clean his face. He looked at himself in the mirror. It was obvious he was having a rough time. He had eye bags big enough to hold a dwarf on each one and looked pale as hell. His face looked thin because he couldn't find it in him to eat. He knew everyone around him was worried about his condition. He knew.