Blind Trust (MewGulf)

Chapter 10: Gulf's secrets (part 1)

POV Gulf

Gulf didn't know how he got himself in that situation.

He has had such an uncomplicated life. He had always been a golden boy for his family. Had good grades, never got into trouble, loved and respected his family with all his heart, and on top of that, he was a hard worker.

He always got what he had put his head into.

He never thought about becoming famous. Gulf loved sports. Playing them and commenting on them. He once had the dream of becoming a football player, but that life was kind of hard, so he settled for being a commentator. He didn't need much, just enough so he and his family could live in peace.

So when a person reached out to him at Siam when he was a teenager got him skeptical.

- Hi there - the person had said - My name is Bester. I'm from a talent recruitment company.

Gulf, who had been there with some of his friends, had just looked at the strange person.

- I'm not a weirdo or anything - Best had said quickly when he saw the boy's expression - Here, have my card.

Best had given Gulf his presentation card. Gulf had thought it looked legit so he listened to what the man had to say.

That was the beginning of his career in the entertainment industry. He never actually thought he was particularly handsome or anything, but he was tall and that gave him jobs for modeling. After that, he started to appear in some music videos and that raised his popularity.

But Gulf was a simple and humble person. He just considered that a job. He still loved his friends and played with them from time to time. He took care of his family and cared for the little fanbase he had.

After years of doing little jobs here and there, Best suggested he try acting. That kind of weird Gulf out because he was not an actor. But he listened to his Phi, and took acting classes to improve his skill. After some time, he started going to auditions. Best told him to try BL series first. Even if it wasn't the main character, they were extremely popular, and being in one could open some doors for him.

When he told his friends about it, some of them asked Gulf if he didn't feel weird about acting in a BL story.

- What if you have to kiss some dude? - one of them said.

- Then, I'll do it. If my character likes a guy then I'll kiss a guy.

Sexuality wasn't a big deal to Gulf. At 18, he got to the conclusion that he was asexual. Gulf didn't feel attraction at all for anyone. He used to look at the porn videos his friends sent to him, and even though he could tell the girl was beautiful, he didn't feel a thing. So later on, he started to think he was gay. But looking at gay porn made him feel the same... or not feel a thing.

Don't get him wrong, he could still masturbate and have an orgasm. He just didn't feel attracted to anybody at all.

So, when his friend Poom asked him to be her boyfriend he told her that bluntly.

- I'm not attracted to you, Poom. Sorry.

She still told him to try.

- Just let's try it out. Be with me for a while, and when you find someone you're attracted to, we end things. We can still be friends.

- What do you need a boyfriend for?

- My parents want to introduce me to this asshole. I'm not into it. Just help me, please. You love me, don't you?

- You know I do. But I can't be with you sexually.

- I don't need that. Just being by my side is enough.