Blind Trust (MewGulf)

Chapter 16: My everything

POV Gulf

They were currently having a break from filming.

MAME wanted them to rest fo the rest of the week. Maybe do some homework about the characters but nothing too stressful. Mew still needed to attend his classes. Gulf had taken some of his time off to gather with his friends and play football.

But that didn’t mean they didn’t saw each other at that time.

They called and talked almost every day. Gulf went to visit Mew’s condo a couple of times, and spent the afternoons with Mew. He knew Mew was tired and busy, but every time he tried to leave him alone and give him some space, Mew would call back saying that he needed to distress.

The fact that Mew talking to him was a relief method for him made Gulf extremely happy.

Gulf was positive about his relationship with Mew. He thought he was moving forward, little by little. It was taking time, but the things that were worth it usually do. Gulf was willing to wait until Mew felt the same way he did.

The only thing he didn’t like about their current status was the fact that he didn’t have the right to do a lot of things. Like asking Mew about things he didn’t want to share. Or telling him that he would help him no matter the cost when he felt like having a panic attack.

They were friends (kind of?), and Mew was a very private and closed person.

And Gulf always wanted to fix problems that weren’t his to fix in the first place.

Gulf was the type of person that sometimes wouldn’t know when he is crossing the line. He would get so into trying to help someone, the wouldn’t realize he is making the other person uncomfortable. Gulf was a problem-fixer, even when people didn’t want the problem fixed.

He was trying to change that with Mew. He needed to be cautious with him because he could lose all the progress he had made over the last weeks.

- Do you think Tharn would have left Type? - Gulf asked while they were having lunch in a coffee shop.

- When Type left to be with Puifai, you say?

- Yes. He said later that he was going to break things off with Type.

- Hmmm - Mew hummed as he thought - Tharn was feeling tired and hurt I guess. At that point in the story, Tharn was already in love with Type. He knew why Type was doing what he was doing. I guess he felt that, if being with him would make him feel scared, and he needed some sense of ‘normalcy” in his life, then it was better to let him go. Even if that broke his heart.

Gulf thought about it. It was difficult to put himself in Type’s shoes because he had never experienced such a big trauma.

Traumas were really difficult to explain. Everyone reacted differently to it. Some had PTSD, some had nightmares, some would be scared for the rest of their life… and some would become angry and bitter.

Gulf guessed Type belonged to the last group.

The screams, punches, and slurs were just a way to protect himself. Because he was scared.

- I guess Type wanted to prove to himself that he was “normal” - Gulf said - He became overly attached to Tharn without even realizing, and that scared him.

- But he hurt Tharn on purpose.

- Sometimes that’s the only way we got to protect ourselves from being hurt - Gulf looked at Mew’s face.

After all, Mew was that way too.

Gulf understood that. Mew was scared. Because of his past. But Gulf just needed him to give him a chance. A chance to prove that he would never do a thing like that to him.