The River (Laurisa Cimorelli)

Four: The Fight and The Confusion

THE FIGHT AND THE CONFUSION

Lisa

LISA LET HER FRONT BODY covered by the sun that is about to set. She closed her eyes, savoring the warmth hitting her body right at the very moment. Take a deep breath, Lisa is trying to relax and not thinking about what happened earlier. She was so mad, she couldn't stay at her house. no, not after Christina hurted her feelings. As the time keep ticking, the voice of her oldest sister came back into her mind.

It was a normal day where Lisa just stayed in her room. Shes just done painting her nails and has nothing to do anymore when Christina suddenly barging in her room with her famous angry face. There was a huge difference when Chris was upset, and when she's mad. The scariest was her mad/angry face. Everyone knows that, and she's rarely making that face to her family, so when Chris came around with the face, Lisa knows that something is up. But she has no idea about what it was.

"Lisa, we need to talk. This can't be going on anymore."

Lisa's plain look now is changing into her confused one. Lisa got confused because she's been inside of the house entire day and didn't make troubles today as far as she remembered. "What? What do you mean?"

Christina touches her temple while remaining to keep herself calm. But she's too frustrated. She sighed and managed to control her breath and temper. "You. And Lauren." As soon as Lisa heard it, her expression quickly changed into her cold one. She knows where's this conversation will go. She knows that Chris will taking side with Lauren. So does everyone in the family. Not saying anything, Christina finally broke the silence.

"This has been going on for like what? 13 years? You've been like this for this long and for what, Lisa?" Christina yelled at Lisa because she couldn't hold it anymore when Lisa just look at her coldly instead of reply to her words. "You have been so cruel to Lauren for the past 13 years and FOR WHAT, LISA? Even when she's still a kid you would hurt her. What the heck is happening to you?!"

Lisa glared at her oldest sister with the sharpest glare she ever could give to anyone. "You're asking this now?" she simply said.

"YOU'RE ASKING THIS NOW, CHRIS?!" Lisa stood up, she feels like she's just releasing the lion inside of her. "Let me tell you what are those for."

"She deserves it for making me like this in the very first place. She deserves it for changing my life into THIS miserable. She deserves everything because my wound was the worst compared by hers. She ruined my life. She killed her." Lisa said furiously.

"She deserves all that. Because her pain was nothing if it compares to mine." She growled. Christina looks taken back for a minute but she changed her expression in a second. "This. Isn't fair to Lauren. She-"

"OH keep it, Christina!" Lisa scoffs ."It doesn't matter how much could I explain what I feel about her to you. To any of you. It's useless because in the end of the day you will defend her and stand on her side anyways. For so long, all of you has been defending her, and ignoring what I feel when literally I was the one who got hurted everytime. My wound can never be gone but hey! None of you will understand and care about it anyways! it can't be healed."

"You don't know how it hurted me everytime I opened my eyes in the morning and realized that she's not here. You don't know how I got nightmares everytime I tried to get some sleep. You don't know it because you were never cared about any of how I feel!" Lisa yelled, she doesn't realized that tears were already coming out of her eyes. "Lauren killed her. And I will never forgive her for that."

Chris's expression slightly softened. She didn't know that Lisa has been through all that. But still, what she did was extremely gone too far now. Deep in her heart, Christina knows that Lisa is still stucked on the past. One sentence and she ruined everything.

"You know that it's not what happened, Lisa." She said coldly. While in front of her, Lisa looks more and more angrier than before, she's shaking. Lisas gritting her teeth.

"Stop. Saying. That." She growled, and then she bumped into Christina purposely in the middle of her strorming out of the room furiously. Only one place she would come to, and her legs knows it well.

The River.

Not having her phone now, Lisa don't know the time and how long she's been here at the river. The place that started everything. Changed everything about her life. When she opened her eyes, she could see the sun clearly, the colors of the sky and the sounds of the water not just calming her, but also makes her mind clear. There are couple of people not so far away from her. She looks at her nails that got ruined because she came here barefoot. Well don't mock Lisa, because one thing she was focused on after the fight with Christina was how to get herself out of the house as soon as possible.

Lisa sighed. "This is the place where we spend the time together for the last time, Alison." Looking at the sun reflection on the water, bringing back the words that Christina said earlier to hear ears.

"You know that it's not what happened, Lisa."

What does that mean? For years after Alison died, almost everyone older in her family always told her that. But none of them could really explain what was really happened if it was true what they said. Then what's the matter if it wasn't really what happened? The fact that Alison died because of a stupid thing that Lauren caused was always be the center of the problem anyways. Lauren is always gong to be the cause of Alison's death, and Lisa could never forgive her for that. It won't change anything except someone could bring Alison back alive, then Lisa could probably forgive Lauren.

The way Lisa's been hurt this whole time because of what her family did to her was unbearable painful. She remembered that she's asking for Alison, even though she knew that Ali is dead. She's dead in front of Lisa's own eyes. And all the member of her family did was changing the topic and tried to calming Lisa down. No one in the family seems cared about Alison and it makes Lisa sick. They acted like Alison's death is not a big deal, even tho Lisa for sure could see the sadness in their eyes that moment, but it's not enough to show her that they felt the same loss as hers.

"What should I do now?" she asked the sky as if she's talking with someone. Lisa hopes somewhere in this universe, Alison could hear her.

Lisa hopes God shows her the ways of what actually happened if there were lies on everything in her life.

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