Out of My Mind (Book 2)

Chapter Six

"Your stadium tour is in four months, Elliana." Jane reminded me.

"I know." I say. "We still need several songs for the new album."

"I would have appreciated it if you came to the studio yesterday." She sighed. "You were supposed to be there at 4:30. You didn't show up at all."

"Jane, I was sick." I explained. "I had a small stomach virus."

"Elliana, small viruses like that didn't ever stop you before. Every single time, you came to the studio and wrapped it all up." She said. "You were just that dedicated. What happened yesterday?"

"Nothing." I say. "I just got sick."

I also broke down. I cried to my heart's content. I cried into Colton's shirt and inhaled the smell of his Hollister cologne, even after I had gotten used to the smell, I still tried to smell that cologne.

It just reminded me of him. He's right there but I still needed something to tell me it was really him. He's back in my life.

He's back in my life.

I could have comforted myself by wearing his jersey - the blue and orange jersey with the number fourteen on the back.

"I know something's up, Elliana. I have worked with you for three years. I'll leave and fix up more appearances for you but I'll see you tomorrow at eight."

"Studio?" I asked.

She nodded her head. "Yes."

With that, she turned around and walked out of my kitchen and out of my house.

I groaned.

I can do this.

I can do this.

I walked up the stairs and entered the room I hold precious to me more than most things in my house.

I shut the doors and walked over to the piano.

I slid my fingers over the top before sitting down and resting my hands onto the keys.

"I should be in here more often."

I don't know what made me play this musical piece. I don't know why I started to press the keys so naturally and it was as if I had played this piece since I was seven.

I learned this piece two years ago.

Every single time I played it, Colton came into my mind.

He's the one to run through my mind everyday. He's the one I thought of while learning this song.

When I learned this song, I was having another emotional breakdown. Every single time, it was caused by a thought of Colton and every single time, it was stopped by a thought of Colton.

I think about him too much. I think about him as if he's my lifeline.

He's not my life.

He's the one who keeps me holding onto it.

I can say that I can do it all by myself but he influenced me this whole time these past five years.

He influenced me.

Back then, his reputation ruled him and made him out be the bad boy.

He wasn't as bad as everyone thought. If anything, he was ten times better.

His reputation made me believe rumors that were untrue and should have been nonexistent.

He's the one everybody thought highly of but thought he'd play community football or he'd just go on to be something else and others believed he'd be a lowlife.