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Who are you really?

(This oneshot was inspired by the song "who are you really" by Mikki Ekko - Reds and some other songs I have in my playlist. ^^)
{Tw: Angst, suicidal thoughts, implied self harm}

~Evil Xisumas POV~

Darkness surrounded me, being banned in the void wasn't as bad anymore when you get used to it. But at some point it will start to affect your mental health. I have seen a lot of banned souls break underneath the pressure and the silence that the void pushed onto you.

The curse of the void caused you to go deaf, the only thing you where able to hear where your own thought's and the voices that would start frocing themselves into your mind. Recently another banned player broke because of them. He screamed and tried to destroy the chains that where holding him down, but no one could hear him. Eventually he died, with no one left to mourn his death and remember him.

A shiver ran down my spine. I definitely didn't want to end up like him, I knew that I wasn't going crazy jet and I still hoped that my brother would save me.
I missed him. Even though people started calling me his evil twin we had still remained very close. The 'Evil twin' thing was originally supposed to be a joke for halloween, but they took it to seriously and I ended up here. Banned for something I didn't do.

When I last saw my brother he had left to vistit an university, where he wanted to learn how to become an admin. That was one year ago and I got banned around half a year ago. I quickly got used to being banned and decided that I shouldn't try to resist the chains, because that would only quicken the process of me loosing my mind. One good thing was that I still felt in control of the few actions and desicions I could make.

I let a silent sigh escape my lips. I felt tired and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off into the world of nightmares, which I kept having since I got here.

When I opened my eyes again I immediately knew that I was dreaming, because there where no chains attached to me and I could walk around. I could also hear things again. That was the scary part about these dreams though. Even if my surroundings seemed safe I should always listen and or look out for things that seem odd. I looked around trying to see what kind of setting I was in when I heard something hit the ground behind me.

I immediately froze and listened for any indications that it was a threat. I heard chains rustle behind me and was about to run when I heard a small voice. "H-help me." The voice sounded familiar but I couldn't say who it reminded me of. The thought of turning around to find out crossed my mind but I quickly pushed that asside and started running. I wouldn't risk going crazy because of that voice.

My suspicions where confirmed when the voice suddenly screamed and something started chasing me. I kept on running while the voice asked me why I have come to this place. It kept saying that I was a stranger, a stranger that shouldn't be here. Suddenly I  tripped. Tears where rolling down my face and I was prepared to die and wake up chained again, but nothing happened. Instead the voice spoke up again. "Who are you really?" It asked. I didn't know what to awnser. Somehow I was still convinced that it wouldn't hear me even if I told it. So I remained silent until it started screaming at me.

I suddenly woke up, expecting everything to be quiet again, but it wasn't. I could hear someone mumble and I felt my blood freeze. As if it noticed that I was awake, the mumbling stopped. I looked around me but the other banned players, that I could make out in the darkness where still trapped in their own nightmares. Or at least I assumed they where.

Was I going crazy? No that couldn't be it! I had tried so hard to avoid it so that couldn't be it-

"Are you sure about that?"

I froze. "No, no, no, no, no, no, NO, NO!" I started screaming, or at least I think I did, because I couldn't hear anything but my thoughts and that stupid voice. I didn't want to go crazy! I wanted to live, to see my brother again and to forgett about this place! I don't want to die here and never see or hear him again! Tears started rolling down my face and my whole body started trembeling.