D͓̽o͓̽u͓̽b͓̽l͓̽e͓̽ N͓̽e͓̽g͓̽a͓̽t͓̽i͓̽v͓̽e͓̽s͓̽ (A Logicality story)

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TW: mention of abuse, bad thoughts, cussing

*rustling sounds

shit...hold on...

*more rustling*

*deep sigh*

Okay, okay, first of all

I'm not going to cry. 

If I sound like I am, I'm not alright

I'm, not letting myself.

I'm also not going to give dad a chance. He did what he did and there's no taking it back. Showing up once randomly and saying he's changed doesn't undo what's been done. Years of trauma and trust issues cant be undone with a 'my bad'. If people went by that rule you could just do whatever the heck you wanted and just give a half-hearted apology and everything would be okay. 

So much pain. So much sorrow. What for? Just for him to be forgiven? What happened to bad people are bad? He hurt me and the people I cared about not only mentally but physically. I didn't know how much more of this they could take. Bitches at school. Bitches at home. Then when it starts to look better, it just gets so much worse. Where the teachers right? Am I bringing it on myself? Is it my fault? Maybe it is. Maybe this was the universe telling me I deserve it. I deserve to hurt. Surprised I didn't figure it out sooner. Makes sense doesn't it. 

Alright, this things gone on long enough. I could talk for hours but honestly, I can't delay this any longer. Mx. Picani, thanks for taking me in like you did. I appreciate it more than you know. Keep helping people. 

Logan, don't you fucking dare blame yourself. I'm counting on you to keep being the responsible sibling alright. Finish high school, go to college and become a lawyer or a doctor, something you can use your big brain on. And don't let that Patton kid go alright. He's a keeper and you have my blessing to get married.

Love yall, see ya in hell. 

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"No no no no no no no....im so sorry please no, please." 

-Shattered-Starlight