Different Shades

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Rose outfit:

Rose pov:

It has been a week since I graduated and started my job. I have so many mixed feelings about everything. It's been eating me up on how Christian talked to Taylor like that. To think I would cheat on him. I wonder if he is blaming me because he has something to hide? All I know is that when I pushed him it felt good, and I don't won't to become abusive towards him, or anyone I love. I'm glad I have a therapy session after work today.

Therapy session 5:30 pm

I stood at the window watching the cars go by, thinking if the kids in the cars where truly happy, or scared for their life?

"Rose you've been staring at that window more than you've talked." Mr. Taylor says

I shake the thought and turned around looking at him. "Can I just apologized on my fiancé behalf on how he was so direct with you."

Taylor leans back giving a deep laugh. "None-sense if I had a women like you I'd feel threaten by any man who snuck her away from my sight."

"I don't know what got into him, he acted like I was taking you up to our room to cheat." I say shaking me head taking a seat

Taylor laughs.

"I mean, I don't think you have it in you to cheat on him, or anyone for that matter I think something deeper is bothering you." He says writing down notes

I bite my lip, shaking my my foot. "It's my mothers birthday tomorrow and Christian has this big event to go to and all I want is for him to stay home, but I can't because I know he has to be at this event."

"Have you told him, what tomorrow is?"

"No, I feel like he wouldn't get it so I feel like I should go home, like to Arizona and be with my adopted parents for a couple of days." I look at my hands I didn't want to look up at Taylor.

"Maybe that's not a bad idea, do you think that he would pick you over this event?" Taylor asked

"I could never ever tell him to pick his career, or events he is passionate about over me, he would hate me." I shake at the words hate me

"Rose, look up at me." He says

I slowly look up, and his soft blue eyes gazed at me.

"You shouldn't have to even worry about him picking you, that should never ever be an issue Lilly and you should always come first and vice versa." Taylor voice was deeper this time.

"I don't wanna be like mother in that way okay, I remember this conversation my parents were having in the living room...father he had just gotten this job offer to be president of the company." I pause to fan my eyes, I didn't need to cry

"He was going to have to come back and forth an hour both ways, and I guess mother was like you need to pick to stay here or your job. Father told her she was being ridiculous because his job was helping pay for us, and mother was an Art teacher at the time and she didn't won't to move." I could feel the anger building up

"Mom and dad argued for almost an hour and soon dad told her look im doing this for my daughter and if you aren't happy about it then I guess you'll just have to be anger with me, and mother was but once he had to start staying Monday-Thursday she started to miss him, and we would wait till school was out and stay up there with him, and then come back."

Taylor looks at me, and it was different on how anyone had looked at me. It reminded me how my father would look at me when I would open up about how I hated mom and him fighting. I wanted to hug him, and I knew it wouldn't be a good idea.

"Rose maybe you should tell him how you are feeling about tomorrow and see what he does, and if anything you and Lilly take a road trip to Arizona and have Christian fly up there." He says taking my hand into his "you need to learn to cry more in here I won't judge you it's not my place to."

I softly smile. "Lilly birthday is next Saturday and I've never seen Christian more excited about anything in his life."

Taylor slowly lets go of my hand. "Is this another event I'm invited to that Christian is going to yell at me?" He asked

I laugh.
"No, you can come if you like but I don't think Christian will be acting like that towards you."

"Well good, and I think you've made good progress here today just remember it's okay to open up to him, and tell him what tomorrow is." Taylor says

Shit do I really have to tell Christian? I mean maybe I can, but I still would never make him choose because that isn't fair. He loves his career so much, and I already know he loves Lilly and I...yet I do want him to be around me for that day, but maybe it's for the best Lilly and I go to my parents. I don't even know. All I know is I don't want to tell Christian, and I'm not ready for tomorrow at all. I miss my mother so much, and to not have her here being a grandmother kills the hell out of me.

A/n: do you think Rose will tell Christian or keep it to herself? What do y'all think about Taylor ?!!