"Never thought Christian Yelich would turn down a party.." the guy mouths off
"Yeah, well Yelich is a different shade now." Cody say
Book 2 of 50 Shades of Yelich.
Started 04.3.20
Warning this chapter may be triggering, please read at your own risk... if you can't handle it please skip over it and if you need anyone to talk to please you can talk to me!
The song for this chapter is possibility By: Lykke Li
Day three
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It's been three days since we've been back here and Christian has looked my way only when I'm holding Lilly. He had this bitterness tone when someone would ask about me. His brother Colin was now living here in Milwaukee, and he was over a lot more. Colin talked to me and it was great. Yet it was like I'm me but not me without Christian being proud of me, or telling me he loved me.
I don't know how I could be so close to someone and yet feel miles away. It was like I was a ghost in my own house. He so lucky I am so in love with him, or I would've taken Lilly and we would've gone back to Arizona. God the distant was fucking worse than the silence.
He won't let me hold his hand, he won't let me kiss him, hug him, run my hands through his hair, he won't let me touch him sexually either. He had fallen out of love with me. I don't even know anymore. Lucky Cody was coming in soon, and maybe he will talk some sense into Christian or I'm done.
Day five
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I think this day was a little better, he smiled at me but that was only because Lilly learned to walk to me. He didn't even kiss me to celebrate, and he would take Lilly away and I would be left alone..with my thoughts...it's not good. My phone had many miss calls from Taylor I never answered them..I didn't won't to have anything else started. I just don't even know. This house was so fucking lonely..and on top of that I was still planning the fucking wedding...without him he would just circle what he liked and put the papers on the coffee table. He wouldn't let me sleep in the bed..it was like I was nothing. I have to stop doing this and letting him... hurt me...it was not that big of a lie. Does he not see the damage he has caused..on me.
Day seven
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