Different Shades

18

Christian pov:

The rest of the season was actually amazing, we however didn't make it. I truly was blessed with the season we had, and now I can make it better with Rose. Enjoy all the last mintue wedding planning with her. Seeing her smile brightly at picking the color themes, the wine, beer, and champagne, and sodas for the kids. She thinking of everyone in this wedding, but I don't know if she has thought of herself. She doesn't have to please anyone, but herself. It's been two months since everything has happened. I am glad she has forgiven me and we have moved past this. Yet...we haven't done anything she won't let me touch her in that way. I understand I don't deserve to touch her. Not after my shitty ways towards the only woman who was pure for me.

My birthday is coming up, and I know that she wants to do something super big...yet I'd rather not do something big because of the fact I have everything I need right here. I have a good life, and no present will ever compare to what Rose has given me. I walk downstairs and she smiles at me. I loved her looking at me like she is looking at me the first time ever.

"Baby do you have the suits for your boys?" She asked getting Lilly dressed

"Oh yeah baby we are ready, just waiting on the wedding." I say giving my girls a kiss

"Good, because we only have a month till the wedding and I am nervous as fuck Christian." She says putting Lilly on the ground as she runs to her toys

I take her hand, smiling I know she is ready for all this wedding planning to be over with. She seems to not like it but I know she deserves the best because she has done a lot of shit for everyone else. I am beyond happy about marrying her.

I don't know how I managed to get her to say yes about marrying me. Of all the people she could've married. She goes for the fucked Major League baseball player. I watch her with our daughter, her friends, my family...to think she has been through hell for what..and to think I damaged her a lot. I was an ass to her like what the fuck.

"Hey, I'm going to go out with Josie she taking me wine tasting." She says looking at me

"Oh, well be carful." I reply looking at her

I'm waiting for a kiss but that doesn't happen..she kisses Lilly. I am not worthy of her love. Just like I wasn't of Claires'.

Five Hours later

I had gotten Lilly to sleep, she has had a rough few nights her teeth were coming in, and she hadn't slept so she has been sleeping on my bare chest...it's her favorite spot just like her mothers.

I'm lonely... I know she loves me, Rose. Yet she knows I am a man of needs and it's her the way she looks at me durning our love making. It lets me know I'm worth of love and her. I just fucked up and it's like I'll never get her back in that way. Why the fuck does she want to marry me?

The door opens, and a very giggling Rose comes through. She shuts the door behind her, turning to face me.

"Yelich!"

"Jackson, hey our daughter is asleep." I whisper

She laughs, putting her hand over her mouth and mumbles something. I laugh, and move her hand.

"What baby?" I asked

"I am drunk, and you are fucking marrying me." She slurs

"I don't get it, you want to marry me?" I asked

"Of course, have you seen you?" She burps her cheeks become red