No longer Invisible

Chapter 20

So I was going through my notes and found out Naomi only has 2 sisters I really thought I put more.

Naomi P.O.V

"What was that about?" Stacy whispered to me as we walked behind Toby. "I'll tell you when we get inside." I whispered back. The moment we got inside I grabbed Stacy and started walking away from the guys and went to a bathroom.

"Okay so I almost kissed Christopher and Toby saw but like a day or two ago I and Toby were just staring into each other eyes and I don't know how to feel or what to do." I said I felt guilty and not at the same time for doing those things.

I don't understand why it's not like I kissed Christopher and nothing was even happening with Toby.

"I see don't worry about it. I think now that they know you know they like you that he's just worried and knowing him he'll want his space a little so for now don't worry about sorting it out yet and just wait." I nodded.

"Thanks Stacy." We walked out and split up  I went to my locker and Stacy got called over to her other friends.

I took her advice and just waited until I felt like he would be calmed down for me to talk to him. After school was out I went over to his car.

There were a few girls around him and like two or three guys. I walked past them which the girls didn't like. "Who the hell is she?" Some of the girls asked. "Toby I need to talk to you please." I said.

"About?" I looked around and saw them looking at me. "I'm not talking about it unless we're alone." I said. He simply waved his hand and instantly they all left. 

"Now what did you want?" He wasn't acting like himself maybe he needed more time. I should've waited longer but I feel like I made a big deal about it.

"I'm sorry about this morning. I wasn't thinking." I said. "Naomi do you like me?" He asked. "I don't know." I truly don't know how I feel about any of them.

"Do you like Christopher?" I answered the same. I don't know my feelings but I do know I don't want to lose any of them. 

These three guys are the first people in a very long time to notice me and care about me and because of them, I got Stacy too.

He asked about Carter and my answer still didn't change. "what if you knew how you felt about all 3 of us? What would you do?" He asked.

I've actually been thinking about that a lot since I found out and I've been thinking about it even more after what happened with Toby. 

"I...I wouldn't say anything." This whole time Toby hadn't shown any emotion his face was blank not even his voice held anything but when I said that it changed.

"What?" He looked sad and confused and I could hear both of them in his voice too.

"Because I can't lose any of you. I'm not like you guys people don't talk to me not even my own family talks to me most of the time. If I lose even one of you guys it will hurt so much so if having one or two of you get mad at me or each other is how it will end up then I won't say anything." 

I'm willing to hide any romantic feelings if it means I still get to be around the people who for the first time in my life made me feel seen. Made me feel like I actually mattered to someone.

I was on the verge of tears just thinking of any of them leaving or if they started fighting. I just don't want anything like that to happen because of me. Because I chose one.

I think Toby noticed the tears building up because he hugged me tight like he was just as scared of losing me as I was of losing him.

"I'll always be here Naomi and I'm sorry. It just hurt seeing that something I want with the girl I love so much was going to happen with someone else." 

I started crying. I wanted to stop but I couldn't. "Toby could you take me home today?" I asked and he let go and just looked at me before nodding.

We got in his car not letting others know or even talking to them. We just left. He loves me too? I wonder does Carter love me as well? 

We got to my house and I thanked him but I didn't get out. "Naomi I hope me saying that I love you doesn't make things awkward or anything." I shook my head no.

"Naomi just know if you end up feeling the same way towards any of us as we do towards you don't need to hide it just come out with it." I nodded.

I smiled at him and he smiled back. We just sat there smiling at each other and then I kissed him on the cheek then got out and walked inside my home.

I touched my lips. I know for some people this might not seem like such a big deal but for me it was.

I've never kissed anyone on the lips or on the cheek so this was something new I've done. 

"Nicole get ready your grandparents are coming over for the week. And wear something nice I don't want my parents seeing you in that." My mom said and left I went upstairs and looked at my outfit.

I was wearing a jacket, a Rick and Morty t-shirt, black skinny jeans, and boots on. I thought it looked pretty good. 

I was thinking about not changing but I knew my mom wouldn't let it go and I'd get in trouble when Grandma and Grandpa left.

So I changed or at least I would but I couldn't find anything that my mom would like me to wear.

I know her and I know she wants me in a dress or skirt and I don't own either of those. I own sweatpants, jeans and like one pair of shorts but it's pajama shorts. 

I walked out of my room and asked my sisters if I could borrow anything but that didn't go well.

"Why would we let you borrow our clothes?" Well, I was hoping for once you guys could be nice. "Yeah, when we get them back they'll be all stretched out from your fat ass." Lily said.

"I'm skinnier than you." I said. "Oh so now I'm fat Naomi wow you can be so mean." I felt bad so I lowered my head and went back to my room.

I texted Stacy and she said she would bring me some clothes. 

"Thanks for coming." We up to my room and looked through the stuff she brought over.

"I'm always happy to help a friend." I tried on different things but we settled on a grey sweater with a grey plaid skirt and paired it with black boots.

She wanted me in flats but I feel more comfortable in boots and since I was wearing a skirt that made me uncomfortable I wanted to add something for comfort. 

I put my hair in a ponytail and looked at myself. "You look so pretty with your hair up." I thanked her.

"I have to go and since you looked really good in a lot of the clothes I brought you can keep them."

I couldn't help but smile. I don't have lots of clothes so this meant a lot. I hugged her tightly. "Thank you Stacy you are so nice." She left and I put away my new clothes.

"NAOMI GET DOWN HERE!" I quickly went downstairs and stood with my siblings just as my mom opened the door. 

"Hi mom and dad." I was always happy to see my grandparents on both my mom's and dad's side since I don't get to see them often.

"Let me see my adorable babies." Grandma made her way over to us and hugged and kissed each of us. "I missed you guys. My little girls look so beautiful and Trent sweetie you look so handsome."

We all sat down and talked. It felt like they were including me and it felt nice.

I always felt like I was part of the family when we were around other family members because they wouldn't push me away in front of them but when they leave I'll be reminded that to them I'm not part of this family and that this is just a show.