No longer Invisible

Chapter 22

Naomi P.O.V

Through the rest of our lunch I felt them looking at me. I ignored it and tried to enjoy my lunch. They were walking me to my class when Carter stopped. "What did you guys talk about?" He asked. 

"It was nothing I was just apologizing to Toby for hating his sport." I said and he nodded and continued walking. They dropped me off and then went to their own classes.

I sat in class till it was time for the prep rally which I skipped. I went to the girl's restroom and stayed there for about 30 minutes then I went to the library on the 2nd floor for the rest of the time. 

I was alone but to make sure no one saw me hid in the back. I read my book for the first 15 minutes till I heard a noise. I put my book down and looked around. 

"So this is where you're hiding?" I let out a scream and turned around to see Carter. "What are you doing here?" I ask him and go back to my spot.

"I could ask you the same thing seeing as you should be at that prep thing."

"I don't like them." So I haven't been completely honest as to why I don't like them. "Why not?" He asked sitting down next to me. 

"It's the loud noises and being in a big crowd. I end up getting a panic attack when in that type of environment or when incredibly stressed out." It happened once during my freshman year and only one teacher noticed. Since then I haven't gone to one.

"Why didn't you tell us? Toby was looking for you in the crowd."

Oh great now I feel bad. "I just don't like talking about it." I was scared they might react like my parents did. They got a call about it asking if they could pick me up and when we got home I got yelled at. 

They thought I was faking to get out of school early and for attention. I didn't want anyone else thinking I was doing it for attention again so I stayed away from stuff like that. I felt Carter's hands on my face.

"Don't cry Naomi it's alright you don't need to share everything with us." I didn't even know I was crying but once I noticed I couldn't stop. Carter pulled me into a hug and tried calming me down as I cried. 

At some point, I stopped but the hug didn't. We stayed like this for the rest of the time till the final bell rang. "Come on I'm sure the others are wondering where we are especially you." I nod and wipe my face trying to make it look like I hadn't been crying.

I started walking but stopped when I noticed Carter didn't move an inch. "Carter what's up?" I asked him and he pulled me back into him. "Please never cry like that again." It must've been awkward for him. 

I should've taken his feelings into consideration after all Carter isn't the type to try and comfort someone. I was gonna apologize but he spoke again. "I never want to see the girl I love cry like that." Oh great so they all love me. 

He looked me in the eyes and I couldn't look away. "I really want to kiss you Naomi." He got closer. "Can I kiss you?" I was gonna nod when my phone went off. I checked it and it was Stacy.

"We should leave." I said and walked away. 

"There you two where were you?" Stacy said as she ran up to me and hugged me. "I found her but I couldn't get her to go." Carter said. "I'm sorry Toby I heard you were looking for me." He nodded

"It's fine Naomi." I hugged him and he hugged me back. "Want me to drive you home?" He asked and I shook my head. "Stacy, could you drive me home please?" I asked looking at her with pleading eyes. "Yeah sure I have some stuff I wanna talk to you about?" 

I hug Christopher and we leave. We don't talk till we get to my house. "So spill it." I told her about me and Carter's little moment, me crying, and as well as me kissing Toby on the cheek twice now. 

"Awwww they all love you." I shake my head. "No, not aw it makes things more complicated. It is one thing for them to like me but love me that is a whole other field that I'm not ready for. I wasn't even ready for liking." I let out a big sigh and put my head back.

"Just thinking about it has me all stressed out." I said putting my hands on my face.  "And to make it worse I might lose two of them and I don't know how long they are gonna be willing to wait. I don't want to miss any chances but I'm not ready for all this yet either." I said wishing there could be a guidebook to all of this. "Want me to talk to them?" Stacy asked and I shook my head. 

"No, I think this something I should deal with on my own." I hugged her and thanked her for listening. 

I went inside said hi to everyone and then went upstairs to my room. I changed my clothes got on Netflix and watched The Vampire Diaries. As I was rewatching I couldn't help but think was I Elena?

I had to turn it off and watch something else because I couldn't help but think of my own problems. I like them all but it's not like I can have all 3. That would be greedy of me and even though I wish I could be greedy and selfish I just can't be. 

It's not fair for me to ask them to all be mine while they all would have to share me.