Deluded

Chapter 52

Evangeline P.O.V

It's been exactly a week. A week full of tears and agony for me. I miss my mother, her kisses, and her sweet fragrance that reminds me of home.

My heart aches to hear her voice but Rico told me that once I do, it's all over as we could get tracked down easily which made me sadder than ever but thank goodness for Adrian who's always has been on my side, wiping my tears away, reminding to always look on the brighter side but it was harder than said.

Sleeping was also becoming a problem for me, especially the brown eyes that were haunting me in my sleep, reminding me of his promise that he made to me that he'll never let me go. Also, my father's face looked down at me in disgust as he blamed me once again. They won't just go out my head and now they're also in my dreams, driving me away from sanity.

Sitting at the bed with Rico sitting in front of me watching me play with the food that he cooked for me. I wasn't trying to be rude but I had no appetite at all.

I was lost in my own thoughts when he suddenly spoke out.

"I've known you since forever and I know you're still moving on from Valentino but I really have to tell you this. I can't imagine my life without you. I'm not really rushing, I want you to take your time. We'll take it slow and I promise, I won't betray or let you down just like he did. Just give me a chance. He was never the guy meant for you. He was just using you. He doesn't even love you" he confessed, while my eyes widened and glistened with tears.

What the hell is happening right now? Is this guy for real? I'm really grateful for what he's doing for me but did he think it's the time for all of this?

I just got my heart and trust broken by a guy that I'm madly in love with and it has been only a week. Did he not even think about how I would feel?

"Rico, listen" I whispered as I wiped the tears away while he just looked at me hopefully and excitedly.

"It's not the right time. I can't just move on that easily. I know that he just used me to get back to my father but it's not easy to just forget it." I mumbled, looking down to me my knotted fingers, not meeting his eyes as I felt embarrassed as well as awkward.

I consider him as my brother, my best friend and never I ever thought that such time would come that he would confess that he had feelings for me.

"Are you rejecting me?" He questioned with his eyes reflecting hope a while ago turned into sorrow and with fury that made me feel so guilty and fear creeping inside my chest.

He has done so much for me and I don't want to look like I'm ungrateful but what do I do then?

I can't say yes because I'll never have the same feelings he got for me but I can't just say no directly as it would hurt his feelings and yet at the same time, I don't want to say anything that would also give him false hopes. So what exactly do I do?

Why do you always have to think about what the others would feel, Evangeline? Why do you always have to compromise so that they can feel better? You always do such things for others when on the other hand, they keep on hurting you and taking you for granted. The voice at the back of my head snapped at me, which made things even far difficult for me.

I promised myself that I'm not going to be the same anymore, but looks like I'm back to square one.

"Evangeline, is that a no?" Rico questioned as he tried to conceal the anger in his voice once again while I just closed my eyes and let out a small sigh of confusion and tiredness.

"Rico, listen I told you. I'm not ready yet" I stated which made him sigh in return and nod his head.

"As you wish, but let me tell you that I'm not going to give up that easily. I waited for years and had to watch you go with that b*tch Abram, but not anymore" he remarked as he got up from the bed, leaving me all alone once again with my own but this time my head is filled with more thoughts that would surely keep me up for nights.

The night rolled on, fresh air came through the open window of the room as it made the curtains dance as the lamp from outside is the only source of light in the room.

I laid still on my bed, with my eyes wide opened with tears occasionally falling to the sides of my face as I stared at the white ceiling above me, letting my overthinking slowly but gradually eat me alive.

I skipped my lunch today not only because I'm hungry but just because I wanted to avoid Rico as much as possible and thankfully he got the clue. I hated how he was talking sh*ts about Abram.

I know whatever he did was wrong but I still can't accept it. I can bring myself to even think that the love he showered me with was fake.

In fact, not even a second it felt like he was faking it so which means he was either really good with others feelings or it was real.

I want to believe that what we had was real but having someone like Rico around is not helping at all. Especially when they do nothing but remind you that Abram just used me as bait.

The knocking on the closed wooden door suddenly broke me out of my thoughts. I closed my eyes for a brief second, praying that it wasn't Rico on the other side.

Clearing my voice, I muttered a small come in, sitting up watching the door slowly open with the lights from the hallway slowly enlightening the room.

A small sigh of relief escaped from my mouth when the smiling face of Adrian greeted my eyes.

I smiled at him as wide as I could, not wanting to worry him even further than he already is but I know that my puffy red eyes would say otherwise to him.

He got a tray of food on his hands as he flicked the lights open with his elbow, making me hiss as I blinked my eyes a couple of times to get them with the brightness of the room.

"I got you dinner. You're not eating well" he stated as he sat beside me, placing the tray on my lap while I just look at it, not in the even slightest mood to eat anything.

"I don't want to eat" I mumbled which made him frown at me.

" If it's because what that b*tch said to you earlier in the morning then let me tell you I won't hesitate to kick his ass" Adrian exclaimed, which confused me.

Looks like someone eavesdropped.

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An update for you guys!!! I really hope you enjoy this chapter ♥️

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