The Corpse of South Tserron

Chapter 9: Vulnerabilities part 2 Piatrice

I felt weak when he opened my eyes to my death. I hadn't considered the fact that I might shock people if I suddenly came out as Evelyn. I didn't consider the fact that I might have traumatized Jun when I died, I don't even know if my death meant anything to anyone else but my family and Jun. I felt lost, I felt tired, I felt confused. Does he love me or am I just forcing myself on him? I have to be direct, I asked him.

"Were you shocked when I suddenly came back into your life?"

I felt embarrassed when the words left my mouth, I couldn't fathom his response but whatever it is, I must accept it. I'm just afraid that maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm just forcing myself to him, maybe he thinks that I'm using him. I couldn't act my way around him. I want his response to be what he feels not what I want to hear. Jun please....please tell me what you feel. He tilted his head up and moved back from me. The pressure seeped in as words filled my head.

"You're just using him"

"He doesn't love you."

"He hates you for how you treated him in high school."

"Did you have to lie just so you would know how he felt about you?"

"Why didn't you just tell him you liked him back then?"

I couldn't take the pressure and I was starting to shutdown. I want the voices in my head to stop but I can't get a grip. The mistakes of my past still haunt me in the present and only time will tell if it will come back to me in the future. I looked at him straight in the eyes to try and read his emotions and I could tell that he was confused at that moment but then, he spoke.

"I'm still shocked to this day. Everything just moved so fast, 2 days ago I found you in the pier, and then I went back and reaffirmed my feelings for you, and now, I'm not sure if we are dating or not. You suddenly came into my life and everything changed but one thing I 'm sure of is the fact that I still love you."

I didn't feel warm inside, it seemed like it was too good to be true and this is just him telling me what I want. I couldn't accept the answer and I was about to break into tears until he caressed my cheek and looked me in my eyes. I felt that sincerity in his words because his eyes revealed a different story. It was too good to be true but in the end, he said the perfect words and the words that echo in my head started to lessen. I cracked out a smile before laying down on the bed whilst giving him a transmission to give me some time to cope with my emotions.

When he went downstairs, I screamed into the pillow because of the joy I felt, I want it to be known in the heavens that I love him and he loves me. I couldn't hold my emotions and in that instant, I fainted. I was overjoyed and carried the feeling of warmth he instilled in me. The voices that doubted him disappeared when he spoke and I couldn't thank him enough for doing so.

While I happily dozed off, I felt his soft arms wrapped around me. I woke up to his cute resting face where the subtle breaths on my neck gave me goosebumps. I unwrapped myself from him and kissed him before my stomach growled. I forgot to eat because of how overjoyed I was so I went downstairs where a delightful scent wafted towards me. I went downstairs where I saw Piatrice flirting with Raizen. I tried to keep silent but the growls of my stomach gave my position away. They both looked at me from the staircase where Raizen said in a welcoming tone.

"Hey! You're Jun's girlfriend right? I'm sure you're hungry right now so why don't you come over here and eat?"

I had to play it cool so I approached them and sat parallel to Raizen while Piatrice sat beside him. Pia was uneasy because she's always insecure and wants to keep Raizen with her so I ate while I let Raizen talk to me.

"So, how do we address you?"

I put my spoon down and looked at both of them before I thought of a fake name.

"Ashley"

I said in a shy tone, I tried to keep it in because I want to hug Piatrice but I can sense that she's still hostile towards me. I kept calm but I need to break the tension between us. At the moment, I'm not breaking the ice with any of them so I have to find common ground. While I was eating, I realized that the food was reminiscent of a consumable item in the Fall Of Pride. I was quick to comment on this and right there and then, I broke the ice. We talked for an hour after I ate and I lost track of time, it distracted me enough until Jun came down to which, Raizen wanted to talk to him.

Jun first took my clothes from her room before me, Jun, and Pia walked up to Jun's room and unpacked my clothes. Jun went downstairs to meet Rai while me and Pia arranged my clothing in the cabinet. I felt awkward because I might not be able to contain myself in front of Pia so I started to have small talks.

"Hey, you've got an amazing boyfriend."

"Thanks, so do you."

"So, how did you guys meet?"

"Hmmm....it's a fairy tale story so please don't laugh."

"Fairy tale? It's similar to how I met Jun I guess."

"Let's just say he saved me when I was going through a bad time in my life."

Pia opened up to me on how they became a couple and I felt that I caught up on her. It's been 5 months but she opened up to me as if it was back on our chatting days. I asked her

"Why did you open up to me so easily?"

She looked at me with a smile on her face and sincerity in her eyes and spoke.

"Because you remind me so much of my best friend. She died 5 months ago and....and..."

She broke down in front of me and cried while hugging me. I hugged her back and comforted her, making sure my tears were not visible to her side. She missed me a lot but we now have the same bond we had all those years back. That one hug was the one that I needed and I couldn't hold back anymore. I need to open up to them and I am sure that it will take Jun a long time before he could get answers. I need to do this on my own, one by one so I can finally come out to Pia.