The Promise Ring 💍

hallucinate

Mattia and his friends left the library together in laughter. Everyone had finished there studied for the most part so they all decided to head back to their dorm, however ale decided to take Katie back to hers

On the walk back Mattia had her in his mind, he couldn't stop thinking about her so he decided to do some digging

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When all 3 arrived home Mattia said his goodnights and left to his room
He started off by grabbing his laptop and searching her name

"The fuck"

What he found was just her Instagram and her missing person picture and not anything that dealt with his dad or her murder

Mattia frowned and decided to search his father's name and what popped up was an article about his jailtime so he clicked it

Mattias eyes skimmed down the article faster with each sentence once he reached the end of the article his breaths became shorter and at a faster pace

"What the fuck?"

Mattia soon became angry remembering that night over again

The lies
The games
The disrespect
The audacity

Mattia shut off his laptop in anger then laid down on the floor
He looked up at the ceiling with a single tear rolling down his face

"Fuck I miss you"

"I miss you too"

Mattias head turned seeing her look up at the ceiling with him. He scoffed looking too and shook his head

"What's wrong?"

" I'm hallucinating again"

"hallucinating?"

"yup, just like I always have when you were gone"

"mattia.."

"don't."

"I'm sorry" she softly whispered

"me too"

"for?"

"everything"

"look at me"

mattia turned his body so he faced her raising his brows she gently put her hand on his cheek stroking it making Mattia shed a couple tears

"you feel so real"

"i am"

mattia sadly chucked holding her hand

she smiled "nothing was your fault okay?"

mattia looked into her eyes "how am I supposed to believe your dead"

"mattia"

mattia closed his eyes pressing his lips together
"please forgive me"

but when he opened them she was gone
mattia sighed getting up and going to his bed taking a huge breath

"I'll be okay"

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*y/n*

I laid in my bed feeling numb
I couldn't move
I couldn't feel
but I could get

tears rolled down my face my heart aching for the first time in months
and for some reason it all came back to me

The room
The camera
the drugs
The panic
The fear
him.

I remember him taking pictures of me whenever I was with mattia
I remember him threatening me
I remember him sexualizing me
I remember him hitting me on the head taking me somewhere I wasn't aware
I remember him injecting me with some serum
I remember I cried and cried calling for help
I remember asking for mattia..but he told me he liked himself after he found out I went missing
my heart shattered.. not mattia..