𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 ᶠⁱˡˡⁱᵉ

new email

milliebbrown@gmail.com→fwolfhard@gmail.com

finn,
these emails are embarrassing.
i can get that we aren't friends.

it hurts like a bullet to the head but i get it.

it's been about 2 months.
on my numb days i'll wake up and forget.
i don't remember that we were ever friends. i remember our memories. but not with you. not the you you are now. that's confusing.

it feels like you're two different people in my head right now. there's the one who held my hand the whole night after my dad died and there's the you who's been twisted into some malicious person who never loved me, and just wanted to hurt me.

i know the second one isn't you.
but it's the only way i can think of you now.

i used to cry

i used to blame myself.

i don't anymore.

i'm still hurt. but i suppress it.

-your ex friend, millie

sent to fwolfhard@gmail.com
11/27/19
12:09 pm

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