Ellas Haze (Book One of Ellas story)

Part 35

 Ella

far too often recently I am waking up with my head feeling hazy I am not entirely sure what the cause this time at least until all my memories suddenly slam into me. I gasp awake with what I think was a scream before I am soothed against a hard chest and a sleepy shush mumble from a familiar voice, I suddenly remember what that voice had done and I try to jump away from him but I am stuck fast against something tightly stuck in my delicate area, my stomach by now began its cramping again and my entire body felt like I had been on a roller coaster for a few hours without being able to get off.

"Hey whoa it's ok, stop pulling," Aiden says with a groan as I scramble and scratch against any surface I possibly can and with a very painful tear, I manage to pull myself away from him and even though it appears to hurt both of us he sits there calmly. I can't form any words I just stare at him wide-eyed.

"your bleeding," he says leaning forward as though to help but when I see where he is looking I curl away from him.

"whoa hey it's all me my wolf is not here right now I promise you, please let me help you," he says holding his hands up and I hesitate but I slowly gesture for him to move, he takes off his shirt and places it over one hand lightly pressing it against my thigh I try my best to ignore him and not panic but my stomach cramps are coming in very painful waves and when I double over I see his eyes widen.

"Did I hurt you?" he asks and I don't answer.

"Did I hurt you?" he says again but this time I give a slow and scared nod trying my best not to anger him.

"I'm so, sorry you had wolfsbane powder on you, we washed it off your feet but that was when you passed out I am so so sorry," he says tears forming in his eyes and I don't know how to respond, he looks and sounds sincere but honestly I don't know and my wolf is nowhere to be found to ask if he is speaking the truth.

He continues to clean me up a little and I continue unable to speak to him, it takes a lot of courage but I never break eye contact I try my best not to flinch and I decide being afraid of him will do no good since Aiden himself had not touched me when he leans down and sniffs me his eyes widen.

"you did not sleep with anyone else?" he asks and I shake my head no.

"but the wolf you were with?" he asks now showing confusion,

"gay and mated" I say matter of factly.

"I thought you replaced me" he mumbles looking down at his hands tightly fisted in the shirt with my blood on it.

"well I didn't I left because you wanted me too," I say matter of factly. He stays silent for a long time before hesitating and then finally speaking.

"I understand you hate me, I cannot take the blame for all the action of my wolf given that you were covered in wolfsbane but I can blame myself for feeling jealous and possessiveness when the wolfsbane amplified my emotions."

I don't need to ask him what wolfsbane is I had read about it in a book while I was in haze and basically trapped in his bedroom but the book said it was not grown on pack lands.

"but it does not grow on pack lands it was eradicated years ago," I say to him defiantly.

"that is true but unfortunately for you, your adventure was through Rogue lands." Mori chirps in and I remember how Aiden had tried to kill him and I spin around to him.
"are you alright? Did he hurt you too?" I ask.

"a few damaged bones but compared to rogues Aiden controlled himself, he did not try to tear anyone limb from limb," he says matter of factly while driving.

"so his wolf wouldn't rape me without the wolfsbane?" I say but I don't expect an answer I knew the answer already even when he went all crazy Alpha wolf before and held my throat the look in his eyes was nowhere near as wild as the look before when he held me against the car. now looking at Aiden who despite being naked looked ashamed and in pain, I now realize he has the shirt he used to clean me tightly bunched in his lap and he's looking out of the window wet tears still slipping down his cheeks and even though I know I should hate him I know he didn't really mean to hurt me. I can see the remorse this isn't your normal bullshit I promise I will never do it again etc... this is real and pure he means it.

"you ok?" I ask him but feel stupid for my question, he shakes his head no, I'm not sure what to do or say at this but he continues before I have to.

"I thought my wolf hurt you, I thought he had finally snapped," he says without looking at me.

"but it was the wolfsbane," I say and he nods which loosens a few more tears. Before I can speak again he turns to me with serious determination in his eyes.

"I know this is not the time to ask... but... Ella will you marry me?"