Ellas Haze (Book One of Ellas story)

Part 31

 Ella

(Warning. I don't usually do these as I feel they are spoilers but given that this is a serious topic that affects many people in different ways I am giving the warning that this chapter contains miscarriage, infant loss, grieving, survivors guilt and resuscitation efforts experience in a first-person perspective, if this is not something you feel capable of reading or do not want to read as these scenes may be troubling upsetting or triggering to anyone please skip ahead to the next chapter. Thank you.)

I must have fallen asleep at some point during the movie because I woke up to a dark silent room, figuring Danny and Shane decided to call it an early night I get up to get a glass of water, my mouth was really dry and I felt far too warm, wolves normally run hot but this was like a fever I was sweating and burning up, how long had I slept anyway? I get to the sink and get my glass of water turning back to sit on the couch but I only get a few steps away from the sink when a huge wave of dizziness comes over me and somehow the glass must slip from my hand and smash on the floor sending shards of glass and water skidding over the entire kitchen floor, I reach for the sink to balance myself but I miss, I try to regain my balance but I slip with a huge crash pulling a chair over with me and cutting my knee.

"mother fucker." I chunter quietly being cautious of the kids upstairs if they came home from grandmas while I was sleeping. I hurt my knee more while trying to get myself up when Danny comes rushing into the room flicking the light on, he instantly looks at the mess on the floor and me in a heap.

"What happened?" he says being careful to step over the glass to get to me.

"I'm so sorry I went a little dizzy I will clean the mess up," I say licking my dry lips while making another failed attempt to get back to my feel realizing how tired I now feel.

"you will do no such thing you look dreadful, quick Danny get her to the couch," Shane says while going to the living room, Danny walked over cautiously and lifts me to my feet somewhat shakily before deciding I can't walk and lifts me over the glass and back to the safety of the living room while Shane busies himself in the kitchen mopping and sweeping up the broken glass.

"I'm so sorry I just needed a drink," I say to Danny as my tired eyes begin to go in and out of focus.

"Ella are you feeling okay? You're burning up, you say you went dizzy." I nod but my eyes don't seem to keep up with my head and I begin to feel drunk,

"Ella, Ella! Look at me." Danny says placing his hands firmly on my shoulders and giving me a gentle shake, I try my best to look at him but my eyes seem to be swimming around in my head.

"My head hurts," I mumble pulling a sleepy arm up to my head before it drops back down hopelessly.

"Ella, Stay with me," Danny says and I feel something cool on my head I try and look but everything is blurry.

"Shane phone an ambulance now she's burning up make sure to give them the trigger word we need a wolf medic." I hear him say from somewhere far away even though I feel his arms on me, I feel my body begin to droop in his arms and he is using more and more of his weight to keep me sat up, I try to speak but nothing seems to be coming out of my mouth and I can't entirely focus on anything when I feel myself go backward and my body begins to shake I can't feel or control anything and I'm shaking around as though I am on a roller coaster, I hear chaos all around me but I can't do anything, I am absolutely terrified nothing is working my mouth is stuck shut and my eyes stare vacantly at nothing.

"fuck she's fitting we need the Ambulance right the fuck now," Danny shouts I want to ask him what he is saying but before I can everything seems to go black before a blinding white light invades my head and suddenly I'm not laid on the couch anymore and there is an electrical buzz, my chest feels like an elephant just say on it and I can feel I am only wearing a bra and panties now.

"Ella? Ella can you hear me?" someone I don't recognize says as they shine the bright light in my eyes again, I think I groan or try to turn my head and the person sighs in relief.

"We thought we lost you," Shane says gripping my hand in a death grip while sobbing at the side of me.

I try to speak but again no words. My third attempt is no more successful but the sudden sharp pain across my stomach manages to force a scream from my lips that I didn't even know I was capable of, I try to double over but my body can't move, I manage to pull my knees to my side a little, I'm on fire and soaked with sweat. Just as soon as the pain eases another takes its place and I am crying out again.

"Ella try to stay still" the person I don't know says while they poke and prod at my arm, the pain seems to get worse before everything goes black again for a very brief time before the pain intensifies. I can't hear or see anything but I can feel everything. Somewhere deep down a part of me knows something is very wrong but no words will come out of my mouth, I frantically think of a way to tell someone, anyone, what's happening but I can't get any form of movement or communication to work.

"Almost at Point state." the unknown voice says to Shane who is still gripping my hand and mumbling something about being strong but by now my arm hangs loosely at my side I can't even grip it, a sudden thought occurs to me to pack link Shane but I can't seem to get through, point state hospital that must be where they were taking me if I could just tell someone, anyone but who would hear me? Analese! I suddenly realize and I try to reach out to her, it's fuzzy at first and very hard like walking through fog but finally I manage to contact her, I tell her I'm very poorly that she needs to tell Aiden my tummy hurts and that I'm going to point state hospital, I don't know if this will be the last time I ever speak to her or anyone for that matter so I thought I should at least let Aiden know what happened. I tell her I love her in case I never get chance to face to face, I tell her how brave she is and that she needs to be good for the Alpha and then everything goes black and this time I don't think the light will come back but a sudden sharp pain shoots through me and I scream again this time something inside me tenses and as I try through the pain to sit up or curl into a ball I feel a sudden rush of fluid, I can't open my eyes to see and I don't think I want to but I smell blood, my blood and with one last hoarse scream I know I will remember this moment for the rest of my life, I will remember this feeling for the rest of my life as I feel something slip from within me, I can't move it's like my body did something all on its own without needing my permission and even though everything around me was so loud my ears were ringing too much to hear anything except the words that will haunt me forever.

"the baby didn't make it."