Taste the Rainbow (Editing/Rewriting, slow progress)

XVI.

chapter sixteen: cancelled 

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The whole way home my thoughts are circling around Charles cheating on Carly and it breaks me again and again. I get home and no one except my little sister is there. I don't actually care because I just want to be alone for some time. 

I go up into my room and throw myself on my bed. My mind literally destroys the good feeling I'd had this morning which was slowly being destroyed with everything that happened today. First Nica and Olivia destroyed the cheerleading team by making the principal throw Daphne out and then the Scorpions probably didn't manage top get her back. At least I think that.

I decide to watch some Netflix while I wait for my phone to ring and Carlys face to light up the screen. The minutes creep by and I don't actually watch the series. My eyes fly to my phone a lot but with time I get easier and manage to distract me from my phone.

One hour later my phone starts vibrating, showing that Carly calls me and I immediately pick up. "Hi, what happened?," I want to know and try .

"I'm not allowed to get Daphne back in the team," she argues and I can hear her rage through the phone.

"That's unacceptable."

"Yeah but that isn't even the worst," she continues, "He said that she can't come back because it could be a bad image for the team because she isn't a 'real' woman. He's such a bastard. Amera yelled at him for fifteen minutes straight after this. About how bad of a human he is and that he's probably going to kick her out just because she has coloured skin."

"Unbelievable," I point out and can literally hear Carly nod.

"And then he kicked her out for yelling at him and gave her detention. I talked to him and gladly got her back in the team but now she has to go to detention four times." She sounds sad and i know that she feels bad for making Amera have more detention just to get her back in the team.

"It's okay Carly. You did what was best for the team. Clearwater can't just destroy your whole team at one day." Again I can hear her nod.

"But the worst thing is only to come," she goes on, "After I told him that it would be a stupid idea to still go to the competition after we lost that many good girls he told us to not go there."

"You're still going ain't you?"

"We're not allowed to. He said that he will tell the organizer of the competition that we won't come." I can hear how sad she is about that information. It was her dream to go to such a competition and win but now she doesn't even get the chance to go there just because Principal Clearwater doesn't want a transgender in the team.

"Okay. That's not acceptable! Did he even leave anything to you about deciding this?," I ask and am really mad about our principal destroying everything.

"No... He said that I don't count as the real captain yet because they have to vote me..." Now she sounds even more sad and I want to reach through the phone and hug her. Before I can tell her that I'm going to come over to her and we can watch a movie to make it a bit better she starts to talk again. "I have to go... Charles wants to meet up with me in the park in a few minutes. See you tomorrow...." I guess he decided to tell her about the cheating and it breaks my heart once again. She doesn't know what's going to come yet and I have to hold myself back to not tell her what he's going to say. 

"See you tomorrow," I say before she hangs up. For a few seconds I stare at the black screen of my phone before I continue to watch my favourite series. It makes dealing with this whole crap way easier but it doesn't stop me from thinking about the two things that had happened today. 

I feel really bad for Carly because she has to go through both of them. The stuff with Charles cheating on her what she doesn't even know about yet and the things that had happened with the Scorpions. 

It's the worst that principal had done that. There had to be some way to get Daphne back into the team without him throwing her out again just a few moments after. There always was a little whole in the whole contracts that made him weaker than he seemed to be. Maybe the parents could make him get her back or we could write the school council so they would demand him to get her back into the team. But even if we would get enough courage to even write them, most of the people there are older and all of them would have to be the same opinion to be able to get the principal to take kicking Daphne out of the Scorpions back and a lot of the adults who are in the council would be against letting her in again, because of her being trans.

For the next hours I watch my series and at some point Meg comes into my room and tells me that she will sleep at her friends house which would leave me alone in the house. Mom had to go to some work thing again and Dad always works at night-time. Just a few minutes later Meg is gone and the episode of the series is over just moments later. 

I decide that having watched seven of the episodes it's time to do something else. It doesn't take long until I have my poem book laying in my lap. For a moment I think about what I should do then I begin to write some words down on the last page. It's full already but I still want to write some down. After a few minutes there's not one single word left in my head and I stare at the page getting more and more black with every word I write. 

The moment I'm done I take my phone and write down some poems.

We will all be equal when we realize,
there is no better,
there is no worse,
there is only different.

~Christy Ann Martine

A second one follows just a moments later.

everyone has a soul.
everyone has a heart.
everyone bleeds.
everyone cries.
everyone lives.
everyone dies.
I am no better than you.
you are no worse than me.
beyond duality - 
we were created
equally,
in love & light

The doorbell stops me from writing down the person who wrote the poem. I close the book and hide it under my pillow before I go down to see who it is.

My first thought is Meg who forgot something, which she always does. Or maybe it's my mom who got home earlier and forgot her key. But none of them stands in front of me when I open the door and my heart drops when I see who it is.

It's Carly and she doesn't look good.

Gif is Auden opening the door

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I have to say, poor, poor Carly. In the last few chapters a lot happened to her and to a lot of the others. Hopefully you like it even though the chapters are getting shorter. 

See you tomorrow on the other side of the rainbow

xoxo

Leo♥