The Winter Project-[Levi x Eren]

Chapter Twenty-Levi's Mind:

Chapter Twenty:

Levi's Mind:

TW: Mentions of abuse, death, nightmares, suggestive content, scars

Levi's POV:

I almost called out to him, but I didn't. His voice became cracked and tears trickled down his cheeks. I felt a part of me shatter as I turned away and walked back down the stairs. So his abusive dad wasn't the only thing that was weighing him down, his mom had passed away and it seemed as if he never got the chance to talk about it truthfully. I wasn't the type of person to worry about someone so quickly but this kid had gone through so much, with no support system whatsoever.

I sat back down on the couch but I couldn't focus. Questions were tearing at my mind and it felt as if I were about to be eaten alive. Despite how emotional he was, and how confident he was around friends his background spoke a whole other world. He was not the peppy happy go lucky kid that I had seen in the halls. He put on an amazing mask of who he really was, and what his issues actually were. He was like me.

After a couple of hours, I grew bored of the show I was no longer paying attention to and headed upstairs. Eren lay on his back on his side of the bed, one arm was hanging over his stomach and the other held it. I silently walked over to the fireplace and lit it and the note on my dresser caught my eye. "Here's your hoodie back, I'm sorry I got blood on it, I'll get you a new one soon. - Eren" I tossed the note into the fire and slipped under the covers next to him.

I knew that there was still a small part of him that feared me and I understood why. I had a large reputation of being this guy that would kill a man if he said a single word wrong, and I would. However, I was pent up to be heartless and have no emotion and that was slowly the way that I had become. I no longer showed emotion to anyone, and I stopped caring so much about the world around me. There were only two things that I decided to keep up: My grades, and my reputation. People have always found it hard to believe that someone like me, could actually be smart. All I was to other people was some guy that beat up people for fun, but that was never the case. If I beat someone up I have a reason to, I had control over myself. Only two people truly cared about me, the rest were just people who thought they did; the truth was If I died a weight would be lifted off of everyone's shoulders. I grew to accept this, and I gave up on trying to love, trying to make friends. I had what I needed, and that was all that mattered to me.

Eren shot up from his sleep, gasping for air. He cradled himself into a ball and started to cry. "Hey..whatever it was..It was just some stupid dream. It wasn't real." His head shot up and it was clear he hadn't noticed my presence until just now. Without a second's warning he crawled towards me and pulled me into a tight hug. He crawled his way into my lap, which was a bit strange because he is a lot taller than me, but that doesn't matter. "Eren what the hell are you having nightmares about..?" I asked quietly. "I..don't want to talk about it....." He spoke between gaps of air. "Shhhh, breathe...it's going to be okay. You are safe. I won't let you leave my arms." I whispered gently as I rubbed his back.

We sat there like that until he calmed down and slid off my lap, "I'm sorry Levi... I didn't mean to get on your lap like that...I didn't know that I was doing..," He said before turning away and lying back down. I laid down too and he curled up so he was laying on my chest. He started to speak again but it was only apologies. I tilted his chin up so I could see his face and he continued to ramble and avoid eye contact, "Look at me Jaeger-" I said before he shut his eyes. I took that time to connect my lips to his soft ones, I didn't move. He slowly started to kiss back and when he reached a normal pace I pulled away, "why did you just..." I cut him off, "Because it's the only way that you'll shut up, now get back to bed. Goodnight Dove~," I slipped my hand into his and was about to look away when he got real close to my face. He planted a quick peck on my lips and smiled. "Goodnight Levi."

When I woke up the brat was even closer to me and he had wrapped his legs around mine. Our hands were still intertwined and I gently kissed his hand. "Are you awake kid?" He pulled away his hand and wrapped it around my body only to pull me closer. I could feel his body grind up against mine and realized he had only been wearing boxers, needless to say, he had quite the bulge, but that wasn't something I was about to bring up at nine in the morning.

"Well someones a bit clingy this morning-," I placed my hand in his hair and started stroking it, he nuzzled his head into my hand and I kissed it. I needed to get up, we needed to work on our poster. "Good Morning Babe," He sat up. "Babe..?" He said as he cocked his head to the side, "I knew that get you up, let's go," I stood up and before walking out the door I paused, "You might want to put on some pants, before I use that to my advantage," I looked back at him and smirked then continued to go downstairs. I could hear let out a flustered noise and a quick shuffle.

I pulled out my coffee mug and started to brew tea. He came back down in sweat pants and my hoodie. "I didn't think I told you you could wear that, did I?," I said as he plopped down on the couch. "well .. no... I don't need to eat, I'm not hungry," He said, trying to change the subject. I grabbed my tea and placed it on the coffee table before turning and walking down the hall. I grabbed new bandages for Eren's arms. I was still pissed at whoever made him do that to himself. He had already been through enough trauma.

I sat down on the couch and gently took his hand before rolling up the sleeves of the baggy red sweatshirt. He didn't say anything, he just watched my every move. I unwrapped the bandages one by one and carefully dropped them on the table. I paused and then re-wrapped it. Moved on to his ankle. I unwrapped it and re-wrapped it in a timely manner, I hadn't wanted to disturb him, but I had to go over to the arm with the scar. I could tell he was a bit ashamed of them, and he hated them being noticed. I took his hand in mine and kissed it before unwrapping the bandages. I trailed two fingers down his arm stopping above the scar. "Stop it...Don't look at such an ugly thing...," he said and shied away. I pulled him in closer and brought my mouth to his arm. I planted individual kisses up all down the scar and onto his wrist, "I think they're beautiful."

I got this feeling, almost as if a shiver went down my spine in a room that was on fire. There was a growing part of me that so badly just wanted to cover Erens body in kisses, maybe more. I wanted him to myself, and I wasn't about to let anyone else have him. I couldn't control it. I was falling for this damn brat and I hated it.

The last time I was in a relationship she was put in a lot of danger, and even know I feel like with the recent events he still wouldn't be safe. He had been through physical and emotional abuse and didn't know what love was like. It made me question a few things, however one stood out. Did he even know how to love..?