The Winter Project-[Levi x Eren]

Chapter Thirty: Why?

Chapter Thirty;

Why?:

Narrator POV:

Eren wallowed in his bed as he tried to fight the loneliness. He admired the gifts they had gotten him, and was glad they cared but he didn't have the energy to interact with them. Mikasa checked on him every hour and he had only responded to a few of them. He didn't want to talk to anyone, regardless of who they were.

Eren just drew silently and sketched out designs that he liked, and even lit a candle He ate strawberries and tried to enjoy himself. After taking the medication Levi had given him, most of the pain had subsided and it no longer bothered him. He was lost. He didn't think that this would be his midlife crisis, but to him that's what it felt like.

He stood up and walked over to the window, looking out to the more crappy area he lived in. It wasn't the view from Levis but he would probably never see that beauty of it again.

"Mom, I know you're watching me from above, probably sewing with Mikasa's mom. I need you not to worry about me. I know you can see both sides of this story, but I can't. I want to be able to understand why he did it, I know there is a reason. I can feel it. I ask you a favor, and one favor only. Please, please help guide me through this, because I think.....I think I really like Levi. I can't just cut him out of my life. He helped me through so much, he listened. He cared. I know you might be very mad at him, and possibly me for not fighting back, but please understand how much this friendship means to me. Guide me through this mom,put all your faith in me," Eren wiped the tears from his eyes and turned away. "What am I even saying?" He asked himself and started back up at his ceiling.

He always cried when he talked to his mom like this, without a doubt he was a very emotional kid, and he would do what he wanted to get what he wanted. Why had it taken him so long to realize? He really liked being around Levi, he liked Levi; at least that's what he thought. He still wasn't sure. Being a teenager was confusing, that was the truth. All of his emotions were a mess.

Why had Levi appealed to him so much? Why did he like being around him so much? What about Levi made him so likeable? Levi was known for being a total jackass and rude, but Eren managed to see past that.

Of course he was still bold, rude, and strong but despite that, Levi was a very caring person. When he had first seen him, he was really fascinated but very scared. However after getting to know him really told him that was a lot more than some tough kid. Levi actually cared, unlike most people. He bandaged Eren up, and took precautions. He comforted him with all that he had. He let Eren curl up at his side, and cuddle with him.

Eren realized yet another thing. Levi had made sure that before he left, that Eren was locked in the room, specifically with no windows, and he even had said it was the safest room in the house. He was taking precautions; and yet he came home just to beat him up? He had been recording the whole thing..there had to be a reason. All the time he had to himself, was too much. Had he been overthinking all of this? Was it really just plain and simple or was it far more complicated?

Eren walked down stairs to get a snack and his father sat in the living room with a beer.

"Merry Christmas Dad," Eren spoke as he walked over to the fridge.

"Oh yeah. Forgot it was Christmas," he sounded somewhat sober, and it was clear he just started drinking for the day.

"I know..time flies I guess.." Eren was shy, and really nervous. His dad had never hit him while he was sober; it made Eren think. Had his father really wanted to hurt him? Was it just some stupid thought; Probably. Of course his father had actually wanted to hurt him. He had once cared for Eren, but he believed it was for Mom. In that aspect of it, it made him seem like a good person, like a caring husband and loving father. That wasn't the way it was now.