The Winter Project-[Levi x Eren]

Chapter Twenty-Six: Sorrow

Narrators POV:

Levi gently placed Erens unconscious body in his bed and pulled the covers over him, he placed down the bag and the note where Eren would be sure to see it before making a swift and quiet exit. He didn’t plan on seeing Eren, until he had to. As Levi drove home he thought about what he had just done to one of the three people he could actually call his best friend. There was never a time where he had beat up a person to save their life but this had become the case.

“You really have gotten stronger my boy-” Meesha said with a rough laugh as Cali helped him to sit on the crates.

 “It’s true Levi...I’ve missed you,” Callium said in a serious tone before wrapping his arms around Levi. 

“Get the fuck off of me and tell me what you want,” He barked pushing him away. A wide smile was now plastered on his face, “That boy of yours, the one who has been staying at your house. Eren Yeager right..?” 

“How the fuck do you know his name and where hes been living!” Levi yelled out aggressively towards the men.

“We have our connections, but that information is saved for the gang,” His smile had now twisted into a smug one. “We are giving you a couple of options. You join our gang again, and we leave Eren alone for now, but if you refuse….we will  kill him and you….but there is one more thing. You beat the absolute shit out of that kid, break his bones and tear him down, dispose of him entirely, and we will let you go now, you won't have to join us again.. But in the future there is no guarantee we won’t return for you and  that boy.” 

Levi didn't regret his decision, that was the way he wanted to live his life. Act on course and not give two shits about anyone. Don’t die with regrets. He was a stubborn man, adn people only ever saw him as a threat. Eren however, didn’t. He Was nervous at first but he warmed up to Levi quickly, he had always been shocked at how seemingly comfortable Eren would get around him, and now he had to throw it all away like nothing had ever mattered to him. 

    That was how he was pent up to be, but this time he wasn’t doing it for his reputation, he was doing it for Eren. The last thing he wanted was for the only person he had ever truly listened to, was to die. Joining back with them would’ve put them both in danger 24/7 and he didn't want to live with that either. 

    Levi, wasn’t the man people made him out to be in some ways. He was pent up to be heartless and not care about anything or anyone, but that wasn’t true. Levi cared a lot for the people close to him, he might not show it all the time, but when things get rough he has to. He was human after all, people never considered that. Levi gripped the steering wheel tight as he began to feel tears form in his cold eyes. Why? Why, he questioned. Why had he really done it? He truly didn't know. He was lost in his own choice, and for the very first time Levi didn’t fully know how he felt. 

    He knew fully well that Eren could be dead, he never checked breathing, he never checked pulse. Something inside him said that he hadn't been killed, he was alive. He didn't know why he felt like it but he definitely knew, Eren would not let himself go that quickly. He sped up and no longer cared for the law, he felt a small drop of water hit his hand. “What is this…?” Levi mumbled to himself as he arrived in the parking lot he slammed his head down on the steering wheel and let his hands drop. “I’m..I’m crying..?”  He wanted to scream at himself in total rage. He didn't know how he felt and it had never happened to him before. 

    Levi opened up the car door and slammed it shut, he rushed up the stairs to his apartment and didn't bother taking the elevator. He slammed his apartment door shut and threw this bag onto the ground. He didn't understand why he didn't bring in Eren's bag..maybe it was because he didn't want to be all alone. Maybe it was just because he wanted a reason for Eren to come back. What if he never did?

    Levi tossed himself onto the bed and glanced out the window where he and Eren had once stood only a night ago. “How can we be so close…..Yet so far apart..?” Levi questioned himself and started to tear starter to form in his eyes again, this time not from sadness, but from rage. Levi was enraged with his choice, but why? He had never cried for these types of things, that wasn't his role. His true emotions had been long gone and hidden away, so why had he just been opening up to them now? 

    He reached out his own hands and clasped them together like how he had taken Eren's hand before. “ I’M FUCKING SORRY!!!” Levi didn't care who heard him. He didn't understand anything in that moment. Whom was he was apologizing to? Eren or himself. Levi dropped his empty hand to the side and threw the other over his eyes,”Now..what..?” He mumbled to himself and he cried himself to sleep, for the first time in 5 years. He needed to be there for Eren, he knew that; but he also needed someone to be there for him. He would never admit this.