The Winter Project-[Levi x Eren]

Chapter Nineteen-Mom:

Chapter Nineteen:

Mom:

TW: Blood, suggestive content, talk of the deceased

Eren's POV

I didn't hesitate. I was not about to let Levi die because I couldn't inflict a little pain on myself. I didn't regret what I did, Levi was alive and okay that was all that mattered to me. I didn't understand why I was so attached to him but a strong part of me said I couldn't live without him, that was the truth.

I pulled him in tightly. All I wanted was to be cradled up in his arms. It was very obvious Levi was pissed at the person who made me do this, and now I felt like tonight might not have been a good time to explain that scar. Today was a day we just needed to relax. We both just needed to chill out, I wanted to continue my drawing of Levi. My arms did hurt a little bit, but I could draw. I didn't say much for the rest of the morning and we just went about doing our own things. Levi would periodically check on me every hour or so.

Levi was cleaning and he had music going on an old CD player hooked up to a huge ceiling speaker. I was amazed at the amount of cleaning products he had, I could tell he frequently cleaned and was adamant about keeping his space neat. I was staring at him again and I thought back to the first time I had stared. "I wouldn't stare at him though, he hates that and he is kind of known for beating people up and getting into fights here so-."

That sentence had always scared me a bit. If he had caught me staring at him would he beat me up? I feel like now he would, I just had the vibe he wouldn't be able to hurt me. He had spent all that time helping me heal. Why would he throw that all away?

I turned away and cleared out that thought, I looked down at the drawing in front of me. It was missing something. He was sitting in bed on top of the blankets reading, the other hand however wasn't doing anything. His weird way of holding cups popped into my mind and I decided to have him sipping tea. His lips were slightly parted and I drew the cup slightly tipped towards his mouth.

I felt a pair of hands reach over my shoulder and let on my chest, he grabbed one of my hands and I set down the book and pencil as he guided me over the wide space in back of the couch. The beat on the music picked up and he twirled me around and we danced together. So he knew this choreography too? We danced in sync and towards the end there was a long kiss followed by a loan, I was too shy to do this so went our bodies were colored together he looked straight into my eyes and kissed my cheek while tracing his other arm down my waist and hips he pulled away and quickly licked his lips before returning sack to his work.

What had even just happened? One second I'm drawing and the next I'm dancing with him? He never failed to surprise me. I fell asleep on the couch with my notebook still in hand and rested.

When I woke up Levi stood in front of me holding his phone and obviously taking pictures of me. "What are you doing Levi..?" I said raising my hands to cover my face. "Awh don't cover your face..but Who cares anyway cause it's not like you're cute when you're asleep.....fugly twat-'' he said and quickly walked away to try and play off his reasoning. "Can we have rice with dinner tonight..?" I asked sitting up, trying to ward off any weird thoughts. "Sure, do you wanna eat early?" "That's fine, I just won't eat a ton so don't make as much as you normally do," I said calmly and pulled my phone out of my back pocket. "Shit! I left all the bloody rags upstairs," he called out and ran upstairs. He was quick for a short guy.

He came back down with the knife and rags, he placed them in the sink and got out a bowl. "What are you going to do with that?" I said as I walked in his direction. "Shove it up your dumb ass," Levi said rolling his eyes while turning around to get something out of the cupboard. I watched him as he stood on his tiptoes making an attempt to grab something off of the top shelf. He was just a bit too short and I could tell he didn't even have the chance when instead of grabbing, he ended up pushing it back even farther. "Pfffttt," He whipped around. "Shut the fuck up Jaeger," Well he has better hearing the I thought.

He turned back around and continued to try and grab it. I could tell he needed help, but there was no way in hell he would give in to that. I walked over and stood behind him, I leaned in against his body and through my hand over his shoulder while I proceeded to push my body further against his. I grabbed the salt and he spun around as I placed it on the counter, "Here." He looked me dead in the eyes and brought his hand to my back, he slid his hand down and curved onto my belt before tracing down my thigh. "Fuck you Jaeger Bomb." I smirked and walked around to the other side of the counter. He poured an unusual amount of salt into the bowl. "Now what," I mumbled. He moved over to the sink and filled the bowl with cold water. "I put the cloth in here and it gets rid of the blood," He said looking up at me. "Oh okay... so dinner..." I trailed off.

We ate in silence and the pain in my arms started to kick in. That's when It started to poke at me. How the hell did Levi know to get out blood stains so well? This type of cleaning wasn't the average person's knowledge. I could tell that there was definitely a lot about himself he hadn't told me, I was curious but tonight was not the night. "Ow-" A felt a sharp pain in my arm as I brought the food to my mouth. Levi looked up at me and raised an eyebrow, "You okay? It's your wrists isn't it?" I nodded and he got up, "Are you finishing, or did you have enough..?" "That was enough thanks," He grabbed our plates and put them in the sink.

He walked back over with a small cup of cloudy water in his hand. "Drink this. It will ease the pain," I took it from his hand and drank it all at once. "Thanks." I let out a yawn and stood up to sit on the couch. He sat down next to me and picked up my sketchbook from the table, "So what have you been working on....Oh?" He stopped on a page and raised an eyebrow, "Is this...Me?" He said and traced his fingers over the page and turned to face me. My face burnt up fast and I grabbed the book out of his hands. "Well isn't someone embarrassed?" He commented and leaned toward me.

I looked away quickly and tried to hide my face but he stopped me. He turned my chin towards his face with his pointer finger and slid his hand down my chest. "You know...You practically steam when you blush~" he said in a sensual tone and pulled away from my face. I sat there extremely embarrassed at what he had just done and I failed to understand how he could just go back to that stone-cold expression and act like nothing had happened in a second. I started to doze off, but I had gotten cold and the blanket had already been over Levi and I nudged his arm. "Now what?" he paused the show we were watching and seemed kind of annoyed. "Can...I sleep upstairs again..?" I asked and looked away, I was afraid to meet his piercing gaze. "Do what you want," He said and turned back to unpause his show.

I hurried up the stairs and changed out of my jeans and into a new pair of boxers, only then had I noticed that I had gotten blood on Levi's sweatshirt that I was wearing. I took it off and placed it on his bureau, with a note attached letting him know it had blood on the sleeves. I walked into his closet and pulled out a new sweatshirt and slid it over my head. I walked to the window and looked out.

It was only around 6:30 and the sun was almost entirely set, it looked beautiful. I had never taken the time to appreciate the amazing view from Levis apartment. The room was warm and gentle yellow light flowed in through the window, it was a nice break to see the bustling world of Manhattan all calm, and relaxed. Lights one by one filled the windows of buildings far off in the distance, billboards brightened up and it felt as if the whole world had come to a pause. I brought my hand to the window and placed my head against the glass. " I miss you, mom. I'm sorry you had to go out the way you did. Mikasa and Armin are doing well, and even moved in with dad and I so I wouldn't be lonely, but it's not the same without you here. I wish you could be home, we all miss your lively smile that brought joy to everyone who faced it. You meant the world to everyone. I'm sorry you had to live the last months of your life in a living hell, but now no more stress, no more anger, no more bad days. I love you mom, nothing will ever change that....."