Ossessione ⋆ Seulrene

Colpa

Warning: suicidal thoughts, attempt. If it triggers you I suggest you don't read the final part of the chapter I'll put a sign where it starts.

Yeri was broken, not because of the death of someone she has already killed many people to feel something for them, but she witnessed her boss, her cousin, the oh so strong woman Bae Joohyun... dead inside.

As if she had killed a part of her, her eyes didn't shine, her face was paler than before, and her lips were trembling.

Before exiting the mansion Joohyun had asked Yeri to just stay behind, that she'd be doing the job. She'd be killing Jisoo, and Yeri couldn't just say 'no I'll do it' because orders are orders whatever the situation was.

Yeri kneeled in front of Irene and hugged her, telling her it was time to leave. Irene felt weak and empty, mostly tired of crying when she entered the car.

Everything was quiet, the sound of the bag moving as the car did so, it made them uncomfortable.

Out of nowhere Irene made the chauffeur stop the car as she got down immediately, Yeri tried to stop her but the door was closed in her nose.

Irene entered the church an dropped down to her knees in front of the altar, she looked up to the figure of Jesus in the cross. "Forgive me Father for I have sinned."

Jennie was her usual bubbly self, she was playing around with Rosé and Lisa not aware that her big sister will no longer come home, hours and hours passed and Jennie was still hoping for her return, but a call made her world turn upside down.

"Yes? Jisoo?!" Jennie picked up her cellphone.

"I'm afraid it's not Jisoo because she's already dead here in my floor." The voice was disturbed, Jennie couldn't recognize it but it surely sent shivers down her spine.

"WHO ARE YOU?!" Jennie shouted making both family members worried.

"The person that took her life, good luck living without someone precious to you, spoiled brat." The person hung up.

"They... had Jisoo's phone... she's... gone." Jennie went blank, her breathing became irregular and her blood pressure went down very fast.

Rosé and Lisa could only see her breaking down in tears, smashing her phone on the ground breaking its screen.

Irene got safely to her house, Seulgi was again waiting for her with a smile on her face, she didn't even look at her and went directly to her bedroom.

Downstairs they heard the door being shut with so much force they thought the door might've broken. Seulgi didn't know what to do, why was she acting like that? Being the curious cat she is she went upstairs and knocked a few times until a faint voice from inside told her to come in.

And the younger got a surprise when she saw Irene sitting on in the edge of her bed staring at the floor, she looked lost.

Seulgi could only kneel before her and look at her face directly. Irene felt miserable when Seulgi saw her crying, this was never intended, what would happen to her authority over her? She's a crybaby now.

"What's wrong? You know I hate seeing you cry." Seulgi made the older look up to her.

"Nothing of your interest." Irene answered coldly.

"Irene you... why do you never tell me anything you're going through? You know that if you let it out to someone you'll feel a lot better, please you can trust me." Seulgi begged, she truly hated this Irene.

"I killed her, I killed Jisoo... My ex. I traded her life for money and that's it." Irene said.

"But you've done that before countless of times...?" Seulgi asked.

"It's the first time I've taken someone's life for my own desire. I felt adrenaline ran through my veins, I felt happy once I pulled the trigger I even smiled a little, but later... I felt like shit and right now... I feel gross.
I'm a horrible human being, am I?" Irene finally locked eyes with the younger.

Seulgi didn't know what to answer, she hesitated because it was true but if she said so Irene would be even sadder.

"It's okay no need to answer. I already know."

Seulgi felt so bad for her, she knew she wasn't good with words because she didn't understand what Irene was going through. The only thing she could do was connect their lips in a very shorty kiss.

It felt bitter, Irene couldn't really kiss back she wasn't feeling good, she just let Seulgi press her lips against hers.

The younger separated her lips looking worriedly at Irene.

"Can you promise me something?" Joohyun had swollen eyes for all the crying something that broke Seulgi's heart.

"What is it?"

"Don't leave me alone, never leave me alone."

Seulgi smiled, feeling happy that Irene was the one asking her this. "I won't."

After a few seconds of cute words said to each other Irene wanted privacy, so Seulgi went out of the room.

⚠︎︎

Irene's hand slowly creeped through her back pocket, getting out a gun, the gun that she used to kill Jisoo and pointed right to her temple.

Maybe if I die I can finally live at peace, everything is so heavy, why do I keep making mistakes? I don't want to continue living with the constant reminder of being a murderer. I hate myself so much... how disgusting I am, I am dirty... Jisoo, If I get to meet you... nah, I'll definitely go to hell.

Irene laughed and pressed the trigger lightly, just then an image of Seulgi appeared when she closed her eyes, Seulgi?

She finally opened her eyes, realizing that what she felt for Seulgi was also stronger than the desire of possession and dominance.

Seulgi was the only person she loved other than Jisoo, she loves Seulgi that's the reason why she kidnapped her... Suddenly the gun dropped down, and Irene fell into the bed.

Tu sei mia, Kang Seulgi.