Bullied 2 (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 30

Lucy´s POV

After hours of crying, there are no more tears left and all I can do is sit on my bed and watch the green of my walls. Harry´s arms are still wrapped around my body and in all of those hours of crying he hasn´t said a word but he never left me. He was always here for me and comforted me in the most perfect way. I´m so glad that he´s here. I don´t know what I would do without him in those hours and I missed him so much in the last few days.

Harry still doesn´t know what´s up with me and why I have been crying. I know that I should tell him now. It´s nothing that I would hide from him, but it´s still so strange that I can´t even form proper words.

"My mom has a tumor in her head." I finally manage to whisper. I don´t look at Harry´s expression but I know that his eyes widen and he squeezes my body gently. He doesn´t say a word for a few minutes. He´s probably as shocked as I am.

"There´s a chance that your mother will be alright again, isn´t it?" Harry softly asks but I just shrug my shoulders. I would be more pleased if I would just know if she will be alright again or not. If she will stay alive or if she has to die. I think it would make it more easier for me.

"The chances for her are 50/50 and they will do some therapy. I don´t know if she will make it, Harry." I say and a single tear rolls down my cheek. Harry lets out a deep breath and my body almost shivers as reaction. Even in those situations Harry still blows my mind every time and my body can´t seem to react any different.

"I´m so sorry for you and your family. How do you feel now?" Harry asks me and even if I know that Harry just wants to be nice... but this is a stupid question. I feel sad and angry, hopeless and disappointed. I can´t even describe my feelings to words. It´s just impossible.

"The worst part is, that I didn´t know all of this. I didn´t even recognize that my mom isn´t alright at all because I was too distracted with my own problems, with you and me. And I can´t even help her. I don´t know what to do." I explain and Harry nods lightly.

"All you can do is being here for her when she needs you. That´s the most important thing." Harry tells me and I let out a deep breath.

"I´m so disappointed that they didn´t tell me earlier. I feel like they are not even honest to me and I don´t know how much they hide from me. It hurts." I honestly tell Harry.

"Yeah, I understand you. But it´s probably a very hard situation for your mom and you have to understand her as well. I don´t think it´s easy telling your child that you are very ill." Harry whispers and I close my eyes for a few seconds. Of course I understand that it must be hard for her, but telling me earlier would have been great. But does it really matter? It doesn´t change the fact that she´s ill and nobody knows if she will make it.

Christmas is soon and it was always the most beautiful thing in the world for me, just spending time with your family. But this year it will probably be just crying and praying that mom will be alright soon again. I don´t want to spend christmas that way. I thought everything would finally get better again but it seems like 2015 won´t be a good year at all. I was looking forward to it, spending as much time as possible with Harry and my family. I thought I would get better every single day, I was so happy and I thought 2015 would maybe be the year I will be completely healthy again.

"Are we okay?" Harry asks after a few minutes of just thinking about some stupid stuff. I nod and there comes even a small smile to my lips.

"I love you." I whisper and Harry finally presses a kiss to my head.

"I love you too, so much. And I´ve missed you." He tells me and I nod again.

"Those days were basically hell without you." I say and we both almost chuckle. God, he´s my everything. The night of me kissing that guy suddenly comes to my mind and I just want to forget it but he deserves to know the truth. I don´t want to have a secret from him.

"I´m sorry what happened that night but I´m glad you believed Katy." Harry tells me and I nod but let out a deep breath.

"Harry... I need to tell you something else as well." I start to explain and he looks deeply in my eyes but I try to avoid his look.

"I was going out with Lena last weekend and I was so pissed that you´ve slept with that girl so I wanted to have some fun as well. I kissed another guy. It didn´t mean anything and I´m sorry about that. It was so stupid from me." I finally manage to tell him but his arms suddenly leave my body and his eyes leave my face. Shit. I don´t want to lose him again. I can´t. Not now. I need him and I love him.

Harry doesn´t say anything for several minutes. I know that I´ve ruined something with that and I understand if he´s angry at me now. I would even understand if he just goes, but he thankfully doesn´t. He just sits next to me, staring at the wall blankly.

"I know that you´re angry and sad now. I don´t know what has gotten into me. I love you, always." I tell him again but I don´t know if I should just shut up and leave him alone for some time. Why is everything falling apart lately? I don´t want to lose my mom and I don´t want to lose Harry. They are the most important persons in my life. What am I going to do without them?

"Just give me some time, okay? I don´t want to lose you but I need some time to think about all of that. Remember that I won´t leave you alone though, no matter what happens." Harry turns towards me again and gently presses a kiss to my mouth. I missed it. I missed everything about him. He turns back too soon but smiles at me.

"Are you hungry? I can buy something to eat." He suggests and I nod. I´m not really hungry but I do know that I need to eat something and I have to try at least.

"Alright I will get us something." Harry quickly presses a kiss to my cheek before leaving the bed.

(Hey! How are you all? I´m so sorry that it took me so long to update but there was so much to do for school but there are finally holidays for me and I can´t wait for christmas and updating more again!

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